my happiest day

FU-YOH..
finally MUET is over...
this few days really damn scared because of this exam

hey guys, let me tell u something. finally i can fool them cukup-cukup ady. haha...
this incident was happened on last Friday. i and with my others friend was celebrated my lovely friend, Ling Kenn birthday. so of course we will sharing the cake. but we didnt asked them to share together because we HATE them a lot. so we decided did not joined them. then when we celebrated it, they looked so angry because they did not knew about it at all... haha... i think they was really angry.. but i dont care about their feeling because i think they are not important for me at all... who are they for me?? hmm... let me think... i think they just is my enemy?? no..not so serious. i guess they just is my goofy friends... hahaha...
i'm really so mean... tomorrow i need facing them AGAIN... when i can finish my studies so i no need see them anymore.. haizz... i'm really boring when always see them. they are not fun at all... they just like a KAMPUNG GIRL!!!! they always act like stubborn... i mean everything they just act like just out from kampung. really feel shameful for them.... i dont know what filled inside their brain. one of them always like act silly in front of people. she think is very cute but for me is really ugly and stupid. whose girl like act silly like her?? maybe a lot... but definitely she is the most teruk 1... haha...
i dont know they or others can find my blog. maybe they does... if u're read it, pls keep your mouth shut... :-X

accept it.. T.T

today is already 3rd may 2009
time really passing so fast than i thought
i still got 5 months before my STPM exam
i'm really so scared...
i scared that i will fail in my exam.
please GOD bless me
that i can pass my exam well...
that's only my hope from YOU in my life.
from now on, i need study hard to achieve my target in exam
i wont let them look down on me..

LOVE??
WHAT IS LOVE?
can anyone answer me what is that?
i'm 19 and i still blurring about love.
is I still too young to understand yet?
or is myself problem?
actually, i really want experience in love but i always dont get the chances
i like to be loved
i like to hug
i like to be holding hand by someone that i love to
but.. but...
i just in dreaming only
i thought last time i will be changes and accept everything that i scared for..
but i still cant make it
day by day, i more depressed about this
sometimes i will feel moody and sad
no one can understand me and try console me
but..
now i just accept my current life...
i just obey it
T.T

my true feeling...

hihi... it's been quite long time i didnt blogging. actually i got many things wanna say to u all but i dont know where i should start. i want share my feeling with my friends but no one that i can trust. they just can be my ordinary friends but not best friends.. because they too fake.. i think... i really need a true friend that he or she will not pretend in front of me. maybe i too choosy but i wont change my mind. i will stand on my mind that i'm sure i will find my true friend..
by the way, just now i read his blog. i'm quite happy because he start blogging back. but i just know something that i dont know how i want convert the feeling. sad or happy or disappointed?? he say that he got new gf. actually i think we can start over but now i know i wont get the chance anymore. maybe we really dont have destiny. i think what happened at camp just a dream only. is already past... cant turn back. actually, i really want to dating but with my qualification, definitely really hard for me. i ady try my best to change myself but it's seem doesnt work at all. what's wrong with me?? i really dont know...
actually everytime i dating, i really scared especially when we have a date. i really dont have any confident because of my appearance. i feel shame ... shame at all. even i going out with my friends, i also felt like that... when i walking, i'm not dare to look other ppls coz i felt that they will laugh on me. i dont like that feeling.. but what i can do??? i hate myself... hate myself so much... but no one will understand me. no one!!!
today i really write too much ady.......................:-(

btw, today lee hom will be perform at bukit jalil. i really wanna go to his concert but i cant make it. maybe next time... next time sure i will go his concert.
wait me ya....

mad to myself

today i really so sad. i just having my MUET exam and i didn't do well in my exam. i was so disappointed with myself. how come i will so bad?? i really so angry to myself. actually i can do it more better but i didn't appreciate the chances. i felt wanna cry now.....
i so mad to myself now. for all exam that i had been taken, this exam is i most failure exam that i had. if i got a another chances, sure i will do it more better. but i know that is impossible. if this time exam i ady failed, i will reseat back the eaxm on end of year but i dont want reseat back coz it's really waste money. and also i dont want let others look down on me. i will felt so shame 1. now i just can do my very best in my speaking test on 11th may. let's dont say about my exam ady.
now i want talk about them jor. they really so stupid.. i never seen people so stupid and useless. how come this world will such these people?? i dont know why la.....
they really annoying me and when they make noise at class, it's really irritated me. iwant shout shut up for them... i cant stand on them la... i want become crazy jor... argghhhhh....
idiot people... even one of them is my frenz but i also have little bit nad on her. how come she can knew this such people... i really felt sympathy on her... but what can do.. she like join them. i also cant stop her to join them. she like la whatever she want to do. now i ady less talking with her bcoz if talk with more than 1 minute, i will become idiot... damn..
anyway, now i just want concentrate on my studies jor. the time are not left much ady. must appreciate the chances that i got now. i wont let myself feel sad and disappointed again and again. hope God bless me.........
STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM....... UNIVERSITY UNIVERSITY UNIVERSITY!!!

lee hom "music man " autograph session

hey... today i was attend the lee hom autograph event at Solaris Mont Kiara. wow... finally i can see him closely. even i cant go to his concert on 2nd May but i will support him. really so many people at there. but luckily i n my friend got a nice place. the place was so near to the stage. i hv capture so many picture of him but i just post the best photo that i had taken... enjoy..

this is his concert poster... 'music man'
nice huh...


this is the stage....


look.... so crowded... a lot of fans..

the MC..

wow.... lee hom...so gorgeous..
love u so much....
LEE HOM! LEE HOM! LEE HOM!

start singing.... 心跳

this is me curi curi snap 1 from backstage when he was given his autograph

posing to let press capture his photo with fans..

cool huh... xD

support 王力宏 forever....

xoxo

crap....

it's been long time i didnt blogging.. because i dont want write so much at here. i have so much thing wanna to say but who i can be trust?? till now i still havent find the person that i meant. now i feel that my class have a lot of gossip or can be say as trouble la. everyone has own secret but still have few people still blurring on what they doing. i dont wan meant who is them. bcoz my blog still hv my frenz read... i know in my classmates got talk about me or gossip about me la.. i know is who. but of course i also got gossip about them la. actually i dont mind they talk about me. as u know, want be a good person with great attitude, it's really hard to be. but on other hand, be a bad person really easy to be. haha.... actually i really like to be bad people coz being a bad is really nothing to worry.
if we be a good people, sure hv some people will jealous to them. hehe.... did i talking about crap at here??? haha... my style...
haizz.... shortly say, be a bad easy than be a good.
now i just want concentrate on my studies. i wanna show to them that not only they can do it but i also can do a best. maybe some know who i meant. haha..
shhh...... dont tell anyone. blek.... :-p