Hi. I'm back again after so long time. Well... let me start with my current life story. hmm.... i'm start working right now. it's about all retail industry. so far i'm quite satisfied with my job now and do not have any intend to switch my job to other company. i quite like my company eventhough sometimes i still will complaining abit. haha... its normal right? So i will try my hard to do my best in work. at least i need achieve something in my life. i dont want to do nobody in my life.
well... next. lets say about my love life. i do met some guys in my life but all of them is none of mine at all but no matter how hard i tried, they still couldn't see my goodness and always see my bad side. i really try my best and even act none like me at all. i felt so stupid when i think back what i did for them. i am so idiot. i'm always scold myself dont treat them so good because they dont even appreciate what have you done for them. but i still not wake up yet. So from now on, i will love myself only. No boyfriend and husband.

我也曾当过笨蛋
我也曾试着当瞎子
当聋子的去信任一个人

我也知道世界上最可悲的就是自我欺骗

但是
人笨过、傻过、瞎过，就够了
妳更要懂得爱自己
而不是一直重蹈覆轍
还自以为多痴情

《因为痛，所以叫爱情》

16.3.2013

Hi. I am back to refresh my blog after so long time. It's already March 2013. It's been past 2 months for year 2013. but till now still nothing miracle happen on me. When my Mr Right will appear in my life? I really need him so much.
Actually I have so much thing to say but I don't know where I should start first. Well, I'm 23 years old for this year. I know I am old at this age. I never thought I will reach 23 year old so fast and I never expect that I am still nothing at this age. No money, no fun life and so much. What am I doing right now? :(
I realize something in my life. Now i know that one life is really important and precious. because we always won't know what will happen on tomorrow or even next hour or minutes. Who can predict about it? Unless is God. So I decide that I will appreciate what I have right now, my family, my true friends, my dog, and everything that important in my life. I don't care anymore what others will say about me. I just want to be myself no matter what happen on me. because they is nobody for me.
Am I start old to pursue my true love now? Honestly, I never been true in love with someone. even he also is not my the one. He is just a passer by in my life only. Not a important people for me anymore. So I really hope my The One will come to me soon because I really want feel be loved and care by someone. He will do anything to make happy and always will stay beside me whenever I am sad and cry. :)

Happy new year 2013

Hi. It's been long time I did not update my blog. Happy New Year 2013 even though i know it's quite late. Hmm... no. It's very late.. Recently I was busy with my exam and I felt terrible with the exam so much. Honestly, I am so hate with exam. I think exam is ruining my life by wasting my time and i don't think it give me any benefit. ok. let's we don't talk about exam.
how about we talk what wish i list for this new year. First, I hope this new year I could find my love. I mean really true love. After the broke up, I had been single for 2 years. Actually, I want feel again being in love. I like the feeling being love by someone you trust. Everyday he will ask about you and care for you. He will always look after you and by your side when you need him so much. That's the feeling i want the most right now. I have been alone for so long time just because i still trust there are a guy is waiting for me. I put faith on it. I hope this year won't make me disappointed me again. Second, I hope I could make some money that enough for me to spend and treat my parents. I really hope I can gain money as much as possible so I can live in better life and give my parents good life too. I am 22 years old now but I still trap in what they said STUDENT LIFE! I hate being student. I don't want waste any time anymore. Third and final, I hope my family is stay healthy and safe all the time. I couldn't face any of my family is in danger or trouble. because I had been through 2 most painful and unforgettable incident that had took away my 2 dearest beloved people. They is my grandma and great-grandma. Every night I really hope I could see them in my dream. I still can feel the feeling that make me crying so badly. I miss them everyday.
that's all my wish list for this year 2013. I hope He could hear or see it. :)

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SIU MEI eventhough is late one day. Finally, you are 22 years old. I received a lot wishes from friends at facebook. But I don't know which 1 is sincere wishing me. On my birthday, I just goes through it like normal day. No cake and birthday song. Actually I really hope I can blow a candle on my birthday. I can't recall back when was my last time blowing candle. I mean is truly celebration from my family and close friends. I not even remember of it.

Final exam is coming soon. And like usual, I'm still in dreaming. anyway, I will try my best to answer my exam. Please... GOD bless me.

Finally, my wish for my birthday is I can get good result in my exam and hope I can meet my prince soon. That's all I wish for it. :)

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Why it is so difficult? I just want to live in simple life with simple happiness. Every friends is start avoiding me. They doesn't care about me anymore. There is still left 18 days before reach my birthday. This year, I still celebrate my birthday alone. I never expect very big celebration for me. I just wish I can have a simple dinner night with my family or close friends together with me. But I know it will never happen because they doesn't care about my everything. How I do can expect they will remember and celebrate my birthday. I am gonna step into 22 years old life. But I still feel I am doing nothing in my life for this long years. I am so sad and angry to myself. I start to give up.... I am really really really tired. I am tired. :(

想你

我还爱你。 你知道吗？我好好好好想你。。。