i love you

you know what.. i never say about my family. because i don't like mention my family to my friends. i don't want they know so much about my family. actually, i quite jealous on some family that they so close and warm. but now, i can't feel any warmer from my family. it's doesn't like when i was kid. we always laugh... even me, my sister and brother always play together. i miss those moment. but now maybe we already grown up and have our own life to go. so day by day, our relationship become not close anymore. sometimes we always will argue. actually, i want say to them that i really do appreciate our family. but i just hard to say i care about them. i really wish we can back to our sweet time... i wish we never grow up. and for my parents, i am sorry if i always argue with you both... but my heart always be with you both. i wish i could back to home now and accompany you. i really miss you both. i just can say at here that i love you so much.....
mum and dad... i love you and you both will always is my great parents.....

i need someone.....

where all the friends when i needed them? where are you? i feel so lonely.... i really can't stand anymore. i hate the loneliness feeling so much.... i don't like to be lonely.. but who will know? no one will know. they won't care about my feeling.... even i treat them as my best friend. but what they repay to me? nothing... even just a single call or message. no.... am i really exist in their life? or i am just dreaming for whole my life? or am i too stupid that i treat them as my best friend? i really don't have a friend to talk. i looked on my phone book. is really a lot contacts in my phone list but none one of them i can call. no one...... i just hope that there have someone can sharing my feeling together. i feel so suffer.... i just need someone besides me when i need hug, warm and everything that can make me feel safe. i feel so unsecure....

heart broken

I still remember how we met... how we start to be together... i remember everything clearly. But do you still remember me? Do you will still looking on my facebook profile? If we meet up in the street or somewhere, do you will come and greet me? Do you know i so miss you right now? Every day, hour, minute and second i always miss and think of you. But you won't know it..... this time i really hurt so much. It's never recover since you said want break up with and you did not love me anymore...... I am heart broken~~~~ T.T

miserable again

hi... It's me again. I am back for blogging again. Today is friday and quite boring day for me. Nothing else I can do besides movie-ing. :D Maybe I need start do revision for marketing. Next tuesday will be my second mid term exam for marketing. I still got four chapter haven't read yet and yes, I am still in dreaming. My mind still in blurring condition. Oh gosh~~~ What am I doing right now? Until now, I still don't know what I am study for this whole semester. I just felt I live in my dream. Please.... someone help me!!!!

I start miss him again. OMG!!! Why he never leave from my mind till now??? I still can't forget about him. He always appear in my mind. Can you just leave from my life? I don't wish to live in your shadow anymore. Just GET OUT!!!!! >.<"

miserable

I am miserable right now. I don't know what I want to do now. Day by day, I felt loss my energy. I want find back myself. Who I am now? What happened to me? Can someone tell me? I still don't know what I want in my life. Sometimes I really get jealous on someone that they can find what they want. I need some inspiration and motivation now. I am lost~~~ I just felt that now I trapped in a huge jungle. I try to find road to get out from the jungle but I couldn't. I can find any road.. every surrounds on me so strange for me and dark. I am afraid. I need someone guide me out from the jungle. I wait.. wait.. wait... but the person never show up. Where the person gone? I need you badly... What I mean at here is I need happiness. I need love... I need caring... I need hugging. But no one love me anymore. I started felt I had been isolated.

Sometimes I wonder, when I can found my true love? I miss the moment I was been love, hugged, and..... I miss those moment with him. But I know we can't turning back anymore. God had given us second chance but we still can't make it succeed. Maybe all of this is fate. I believe on destiny. I know someday my true love will appear in front of me. Actually I still believe in love if I really can truly feel it with my heart. I hope I can find it soon~~~~ :-)

Gonna study hard for my final exam... good luck siu mei!!!! :D