So this is my first blog in 2011. What i miss at here? oh ya.. happy new year 2011. Sorry that i late... I'm really not in mood to write blog. And some more, i lazy to write it. Currently, i already starting my second semester. And... i still not happy with my life now. It's getting worse. I so hate this place and people at here. I hate it so much.... I really want my previous life.. where i feel so free and nothing to do. I hate my life now. Especially my idiot friends... now i getting far from them because i don't like see them. They really make me eyesore... damn it!!! When i start talking about them, i really get mad. I don't know what my fault from my life that i can knew these friends... They really so embarrassing me so much... How come they don't know nowadays fashion? and lifestyle too.... they just like a kampung people come out to town... oh my god!!! okay. stop talking about them...
Valentine just gone.... i still remember i spent my first valentine with him. every single moment with him is my most precious moment for me... i remember it so clearly. sometimes when i recall back, my tears will falling down.... i am crying.... by alone. Who knows? The wong siu mei that they know is tough, no feeling when watch sad movie or love movie... you know what? i do.... i do have feeling but i just never show in front of you all. i hide it in my heart... and cry by myself in room.. I don't want you all look my crying face... I want hide all my sadness feeling from you. sometimes, i really felt i still love him. If now he find me back and asking for together, i probably will say yes because i do love you now. But i don't know i can handle it anymore... because that time you really make heart broken so badly.... till now, it never recover..... it's still bleeding and i crying every night when i remember how you treated me nicely and badly.... it's so hurt.....................
