this few days i really dont know what i am doing now. stay at home and doing nothing. i felt that my life is quite boring and no meaningful at all. i felt that being a human like this really boring and i think i will crazy someday. since i was broke up, i really give up on dating or love some1. actually when i dating with this guy, i really want with him and i also trying 2 love him but i cant. b4 i agree 2 be his gf, i always asking my friends whether i really need 2 accept him. then my friends say just follow ur heart and if u think u're really like him so just going on. but i struggle with myself. i really so confused at that time.... finally, i try 2 give him a chance and also myself... so i try 2 be with him. i telling myself that i wont repeat my mistakes b4 with my 1st bf. but i do it again... i really cant accept him. so i made a decison that broke up with him coz if i still didnt explain with him, sure we both wont happy. futhermore, he ady know that i really not like him but he din try 2 tell me. so i make my 1st step and tell him.... the most weird is i din upset after told him.haha.... when i think back, it's really quite funny.... whatever... now i just want being myself and enjoy my life.... about love, i just let the GOD decide it..... :-)

siumei
30 October 2008, 12.03am

______???

yesterday i just went my librarian farewell dinner at Grand Continental hotel. i thought the hotel quite low standard but when i reach there, i found that the environment not bad. it's not bad as i thought. then i and my friends taking lift to go the ball room. when the lift door opened, i saw a group of juniors are wait at the reception table. then they invited us to our table. the design n environment in the ball room also not bad. it's just same as ball room when we going to wedding dinner but the space quite small. then we waited the VIP came. it's quite long time 2 wait they arrived. that time i started boring jor. about 8pm, then party was started. 1st thing we're doing r ready 2 have our meals... haha.. but the food was not my favourite so i just take a little bit only. it's really make me yiekkkk...... then it's was a time 2 watched the show that was planned by juniors. hmmm.... the shows quite nice la. after that, time for lucky draw n i so lucky n got a present. but the present just a CUP only... what the f??k!!!! what i want 2 do with the stupid cup?? haiz.... then got some games 2 played. for me, the games that be planned by juniors was so childish but i also played until so crazy... aiyooo... what i am doing now... when i think back, i felt i so... so... haizz.. the dinner was end on 10.30pm. when i reached home, it's was quite late jor n so tiring... in conclusion, this dinner was the worst dinner that i have b4. suckkkk...... wasted my money.... so 'sam tong' lolx... damn.... >.<
let's talked other topic la. hmm... what topic that i can said le?? ah.. har... i finally got my 'L' license ady even i got failed 1 times my undang test.. haizz... so pai seh la. after got my L license, i will go learn my driving class jor. quite scared la especially when driving test lolx. now when i think it, really so horrible la. aiyoo... god bless me la...
dada birthday almost near jor. dont know what celebrate with her or not le. so troublesome la if want plan it coz need call this friend n that friends... so expensive la my phone money. haizz... later baru think la. so fan..

siumei
26 October 2008, 3.16pm

childish...! >.<

Today i got my MUET result. Haiz.. i passed my MUET but it still not quite good result for me. I felt little upset. Bcoz my marks same with someone that i felt she is quite ????? lolx. Damn bad la.... but today i also quite happy coz my friends are try to tickle me. So suffering... but i quite embrassed la coz whole my classmates watching at me lolx. Really suckkkk......next time if i got a chance, sure i will revenge on them. hahahahahaha...... wait ya. Hmmm... what else that happening today le?? I think thats all only lolx coz now i less hang out with my friends especially with my ns friends. So miss them especially dada, lulu n zaza. Now we are busy with own stuff such working and college or school. So we are lacking seeing each other jor.. Anyway, i know we will meet and gather again soon coz we are on planning.. hehehe... miss ya...

miss u all so much.... see u all soon!!!! ^-^
like this pic so much....

siumei
22 October 2008, 4.00pm

Disappointed..

Today i just got my economy result. Damn bad la my result... I never expected this result for me. I thought i can take about 50 something but... haizz.. So bad.... Sometimes i will feel embrassing that i got such of this result. I always felt that i'm so sorry on me. Why i could take these result??? Today i saw some people in class expression when knew they result. Some looks so sad and some are looks 'damn' happy. And also some looks like not satisfied with they result. I felt that this time is my most failure result in my history of economy subject. When i knew this result, then i knew it that maybe i will get low marks in other subject. I knew it... haiz.. Now i really didnt want care about what result more. I just want enjoy my life and my school life without any problem and disturbance. I wont let anything infleunce me... haha.... so old-fashioned and ridiculous what i say about.. really not like me. hehe... just wanna to console myself only... hohohohoho... whatever!!!

siumei
21 October 2008, 4.39pm

tick... tock.. tickkk...

now i just wait time pass that i can faster finish my form 6.. but so slow la time pass. still got 1 year more. haiz.... damn long............ i dont know what to write la.
Just wait time pass la..... tick.. tock...tick...tockkkk.....

siumei
14 October 2008, 2.43pm

My Bad Day In My Life

Today i go sg wang with my friends.... First thing that we done is buy movie ticket at pavillion. We watch ' Mamma Mia'.. is really nice.. worth to watch and the music from this movie is damn nice. After we finish watching movie, we walk back to sg wang shopping centre. It's really so far until my leg is so pain. When we reach there, so we go have a look for a clothes, bags, shoes and else. One of my friend is want buy a dress for her friend wedding dinner. So we walk so many shops and in my heart are so bored.... I almost fall asleep lolx. Finally she find her favourite dress but what i think is the dress is damn bad and not nice at all. But what can i do??? The dress is her 1 and not me to pay for it so i dont want talk so much. After that, we go esquire kitchen to have our lunch. I order a salt fish friend rice. It's really nice lolx... When on meal, i didnt talk so much bcoz i dont know what are they say about. Sometimes what they said, i really not interested at all. I really feel so boring bcoz i didnt buy anything at there. I really feel very angry because they go there are not to buying clothes 1.. damn damn damn damn.... really not feeling good on it.. I dont like it at all. Then when back to home, it's heavy rain at outside. Oh My GOd!!!! Is really are not my good day in my life. With this such people, it makes me so fool.... haizzz...
DAMN..DAMN.. DAMN...


siumei
10 October 2008, 1o.12pm

damn stress....

haizzz.... now i feel more scared bcoz my exam just left 2 days only. really really scared.... i really cant study all the topic in the subject. i just can memorise all the topic. i really feel very hard to study. now i feel very boring with studies. but besides studies, i dont know what i can do.... working?? of course i wont get any good job by spm certificate. college?? ohh.. come on... not interested. so... what i can do??? so confused..... haizz... actually i got a lot to write n say but i dont know how to start.....



siumei
5 October 2008, 1.30am

so stress....!!!!

now i started became very stress... i dont know why. maybe exam almost near or something are bothering me now. the things that always bothering me is.... is.. is someone. even we already separate so long but he never find me again. is it every couple after break up is like this??? i dont understand.... why he will doing like this for me??? did he take care my feeling?? you know... after i knew the truth ( what he write on his blog), i was so hurt and felt like i been cheated by him. I really very angry on him. i want scold him and ask him why but i'm not dare to do.... i scared we friends also cant be. i really feel so sad... why he want lie to me??? thats mean when at ns what he say to me is lying 1?? is it??? i really so confused... why why why???? but i think this such of guy, better forget him quickly coz its not worth to be sad for him. now what important for me is my studies. next week is my final exam. i really scared that i cant passed my exam. coz now i havent prepared anything for my exam even revision also havent start yet. what am i doing now??? i just lost my way only.... just lost lost lost.... haizzz.... where is suppose my right way??? can someone show to me?? anyway i will try my best in my exam..... i will not dissapointed myself. enjoy my life...... >.<
GOD BLESS ME AND YOU.....

siumei
1 October 2008, 4.22pm