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now is already 12.44am.. and i still can't make my eyes close. i don't know why.. i just can't sleep yet. i just feel my heart that it will have something happen but i don't know what is it. i can't make my mind and heart calm down. haizz... i dont know what i want say about... now my mind is blank... maybe i too stress recently about my trial exam or i missing someone in my heart?? is it these reason make so frustrated?? i really don't know... can someone tell me? now i need something that can release my stress.... when i back to school, i need pretend to be happy because i don't want my friends know my problem and you know, i am the person who like to keep my secret and i dont like talk about my problem with somebody even my family member. this is my personality... so if some friends thought me is a honest person or always say something straight forward, i think that friends haven't know me well.... actually, not a lot of my friends know me very well.. i mean is my personality not about you all know where i live, what stars that i like the most, what food and drinks i like and hate.... not like that. no one know me.... and i also don't want anyone understand me and suddenly say to me that you want help me. that's not my style... whatever.... i just wanna share my feeling with someone that i trust most especially with my one special person in my life.. but i haven't meet yet.. maybe someday.. i guess so. whatever how stress am i... my life is still going on..... sleep, eat, watch and so on........... >.<

sixth form council farewell party

SIXTH FORM COUNCIL FAREWELL PARTY 2009...

yesterday night is my school sixth form council farewell party
actually this party should be held at hotel or somewhere but is not at school
but because of now everywhere got a H1N1 cases.. so we have to doing at school
but even this party at school, all juniors was not make us seniors not dissapointed
they all was make tha party like we attending a academy awards...
got red carpet walk fame, signature and much more..
quite interesting and funny..
for me, the best part that i like most is THE DANCING!!!
is really so fun especially when we all was dance the high school musical song
"we're all together"
wow... fun!!!
anyway, thank you very much...
here's are the pic that i had taken yesterday
just quite little only..
enjoy...

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it's been long time i didn't blogging
if i'm not wrong, last update was on 17 july
recently, i'm really busy with studies
*PREPARING FOR MY STPM*** SIGH

from now, i just left 2 months more only
pretty scare because this is my first time to be having a big exam in my life
*THE PMR AND SPM CAN'T INCLUDE LA COZ IT'S NOT SO IMPORTANT** :-P
now i already start do revision but my mind still on blurring
sometimes i also don't know what i am revise it
this really make me so frustrated
what i suppose to do??
when my mind try to concentrate on my study but suddenly my mind will thinking about other else and some useless things 1

I CAN'T GIVE UP BECAUSE THIS IS MY FUTURE

you know, now i really so mad on them
they really is 38 people
i really don't understand on them but i also i don't want understand it
haizz.. i also don't talk about them
make me no mood at all

anyway, i just wanna quckily finish my studies then i will be free..
yeah~~~~~
MAY GOD BLESS ME AND HIM*
:-)

helpless

oh gosh... what am i doing now?? can anyone tell me? now my feeling just like enter a maze.. i seem like already so long inside the maze but i cant find the way out. nobody help me out from there. i really helpless... actually it's just like me now. i dont know what i want now. now just left 3 months only before my STPM exam. i really so scare that i will fail the exam. but i know this 3 months i still can change my life.. from now on, i will always telling to myself that "siu mei, you can do it. you can do well in your exam nor your life". ya... sure i can do it. good luck to you siu mei!!!!
next week i will be having my july test.. now i gonna go to do my revision.
just wish me good luck... :-)

sad sad sad

today i really so sad.... i got my MUET result in this morning. i expect to got Band 3 but i just got band 2 only. what i suppose to do now? now i just can reseat back the exam and get more good result... when i saw my result, i really get shocked. it's because i didnt expect that my speaking and listening will get so low marks... oh my god... why these things will happen on me?? i really cant accept it..
from now on, i really need more hardworking and i need to get good result in my STPM. if this time i fail my exam, that's mean i fail my life and no future in my life. i really dont want talk so much... just wish me good luck ya... ;-)

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hello my blog... it's been long time i didnt write blog. it's because had something happened on me this recently. really a lot things happened... i also dont mentioned about it... let it pass...
monday i will get my MUET result.. i quite scare. but honestly, i really so scare. if i really get band 3, i already so happy. my STPM still got 3 months left... till noew i still havent start revision yet.. maybe got a bit. i really too lazy till i dont want study. what suppose i do now? please give me some guide... and now got one people always give me trouble. she really so mean and jerk... i really hope this year quickly pass it.. i really so suffering. because of studies, i already miss a lot of things... this year, what's come to me is sadness and hatred only. no else anymore. why i say like this?? it's all because.... something. i dont want say it.
oh my god... when i can finish my studies?? i really cant stand anymore. now what i hope is quickly finish my studies and of course get good result by the way. and also meet my partner life too... i know that's quite hard for me but i really put a lot of hope on it. so wish me good luck...
GOD bless me... thx..
:-)