stupid...

I just read his blog only. What i saw is really make feel sad. I feel like i have been lie only. Why i so stupid??? Easily believe people.... Damn u!!!! I really feel angry and hate him so much... I cant forgive him and MYSELF too!!!! I really so stupid stupid stupid!!!!! Damn.... >.<"""""" %$#@^&%%^%$$%!@#$ 'f...k u'...

siumei
27 August 2008, 11.51pm

my form 6 frenz..... love u all so much...

you all is my best friends that i never meet before. i hope our friendship will continue wherever we go and where we are.... you guys so rock!!!!! Best wishes to you all... miss u all guys!!!
6AB is a best class at smk jinjang... friendship forever!!!

siumei
18 August 2008, 1.35am

my real word to you... >.<

EveRy TimE I HeAR D SaD SoNg....

I ThInK BaCK Of u...

EvERy TimE I Look At D PiC OF Urs...

I ThiNK BaCk OuR MeMoRIeS ToGeThEr....

IzzIt Me O U...

Or OuR TimE Is FiniSH...

I WonDeR Hv U EVeR ApPrEcIATe Me BfoRe...

O U Jz taKe my LoVe N CaRe To PlaY FOr...

I pUt My WhOLe LiFe To LoVe u...

Bt U Jz IgNoRe...

My HeArt DoEs BlEeD...

OnLy I CaN FeEl Bt Nt U...

Do u ReAlly LoVe Me bFore ???

I GuEss No...

As ThE TiMe PasSes...

OuR ReLaTioN Is PasSiNg to..

AnD i FiNaLly HaD lEt IT Go..

No More PaIn And No MoRe GaIn..

May d GoD BlEeSes U...

siumei
18 August 2008, 12.13am

so frustrated..

Now my feeling dont know how to describe it. I dont know whether i now is hurt, happy or sad. I'm so confused. Last night, i ask him whether we still is a friend? I really hope for the answer that can change it. But the answer is totally different with my think. He say sure . When i saw the msg, i'm so hurt n sad. But if this is he want it, i will respect him. Maybe we be a friend more suitable for us. Haiz... dont know la. I also dont want think so much jor. Now most important is my studies. Now i also dont know why i go to school. I seem like dont have any motive in my life. I dont know what i want in my life. When i start think about it, sure i will very confused 1. SO CONFUSED!!!!! What i supposed do???? Can anyone tell me???

siumei
16 August 2008, 9.40am

happiness came to me ^-^

Haha... Today i really feel happy bcoz today is my day where play so much with my friends. We are like crazy people... Hahahaha.... Today is our form sixth council farewell party. Even the perfomance not very nice n food also quite okay only but i really had fun with my friends. They are so rockkkk..... I never been so happy. Today i really forget everything sadness even i forget time to back. hehe... And today all my subject teachers dont know what happen on them. At class always find people to scold. But luckily i didnt be scold.. Hehe.. So weird lolx. Anyways, sometimes teacher scold us also quite good 1. That's mean they are still care on our class. But i quite scared on my economy teacher. She quite fierce on us... Everytime she came our class, sure we will very scared 1 and our heart are beating so fast 1. Almost heart attack lolx... So horrible... Haha... So now we always must do quick revision on economy bcoz she will ask students to answer she questions 1. This is she trend lolx.... I really hope I quickly finish my studies lolx. So suffering la... Cant stand the tension. Today my economy teacher scold us n i remember she say 1 word that is " If form 6 don't have tension, that is not a form 6". Wow.... i just remember this word only. So powerful when she say this word...
Anyways, i will do my best on my studies bcoz what important for me is my future. Others is not very important for me lolx... Haha...
GAMBATEH!!!!

siumei
11 August 2008, 4.29pm

sadnesss...

In my life, i just have happiness and sadness only. But what is always appear in my life is sadness. I really dont like it. For this time, i just broke up with my boyfriend. I knew him when we at national service camp at bintulu, sarawak. We start our relationship after we knew more than 2 weeks. All my friends say that we are too fast to start dating. Just 2 weeks only!! But for me 2 weeks already enough because at that time i really like him. Oppss... not like him but is love him. Until now, we already dating for almost 3 months more. But i think is enough for me because i really very disapointed on him. What he doing for me, is really hurt me. He not find another girls or else but he just like not treat me as his girlfriend. When we together, i just can feel like ordinary friend only but not couple. I dont like this feeling so much. So after struggling with my mind so long, i decided to break up with him. After i made this decision, i quite felt so sad n hurt because i really dont want let him go but i must. This is for us own good. I dont want let me sad anymore so i must let him n me go. I will always miss him so much.... i hope he too...

-siumei-
9 august 2008, 5.39pm