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hello everyone... i'm back blogging again. now i'm on holiday but i didnt feel any holiday feeling at all. i feel so bored, tired, anxious and sometimes i will feel so mad to everything surrounding me. i dont know why i will feel like that. i felt that recently i really less talking with my friends. is really seem not like me at all. if compare than before me, i like talking with my friends and always hang out with them but now no more ady. now i dont like going out with them and even talking. i dont want talking with them... i dont want. i dont know why i can change until like this. maybe now i ady grow up and know how to think what is bad and good till become me too choosy ady. why i say like that?? it's because now i too choose friends... i like choose whose will qualify become my friends... that's me now... maybe you all will think me too mean or bad but that is the truth. i cant change myself because of somebody. that's not me at all. i like being myself.. i dont like pretend but sometimes i have to.. why i need to be pretend? because i dont want my friends leave me because they dont like me... but sometimes some of my friends is really annoyed me.. i dont want mention who is he or she.. maybe now he or she is reading my blog. who knows... do you think now i'm talking crap at here?? maybe..
last week i just got my economic exam marks.. i really so dissapointed with my marks. but i can blame who?? me, teacher or else? can anyone tell me??? i really feel wanna cry.. sometimes i think i really failed in my life.. i mean i failed everything..
haizz... now i lazy to write ady... whatever... tata.. T.T