Am I am desperate right now? So what I desperate for? I guess money? Little..... But the most I desperate most for is love. I need someone to love and care me right now. In my heart, actually I need most is love and caring so much. But I will always say to others that money is most important for me in my life. I always say that I doesn't need a man in my life to take care of me because I doesn't need them. But I lie!!! I lie to everyone. I need a man in my life. I really get jealous to others that they can get a boyfriend so fast. But why is me still doesn't have a boyfriend? Is it me too choosy? I can't easily dating with others guy while I am not truly love them. I really need find a guy that really loyal and love to me forever. And I also need make sure that he is the one for me. Does that also too hard for me? When I can find him? Can you faster appear in front of me? I need you badly. That's all I want to say... now my heart more relieve after say it out. now i gotta continue my life..... :-(