boring day to goes...

hi.. i'm blogging again. today doesn't have any special things happen. it's just a normal and bored day to goes.... after the 1st class, i and my friends went to dataran perdana to register the squash club. it's took me about rm10 for register fees. luckily that time they don't have the shirt.. if not, i need to pay more rm20 again. after that, i went to class again.. in my life, this is my first time i attending class with listening to music for whole class. i never do that before. but it is because what the lecturer doesn't need to listen up. it's such a useless things to hear. after that, we go met with my other friends who are very like to talk... it's not my type. after for a while i decided to go back my hostel because it's too boring to me. when i arrived hostel, i went back to my room and changing. today evening i been slept for 2 hours where i think quite long time. when i wake up, then ready for dinner... eat again with them. sometimes i really can't tahan what they talk about. it's not my topic.... and now, start blogging at here and write crap at here...
after you read this post, do you think my life at here is wonderful or terrible? i can't decide it.... how about you tell me what is the answer?
wait for my next post...... :-(

i just want apply for loan... is it very difficult? why the ptptn so troublesome?? i really hate the government doing thing... not sistematic at all... damn it!!! just forget it..
now i really want back to my home... i miss my home so much... can anyone make the time pass more faster?? make it after 3 years.... so i can back to my home qucikly... i feel so alone at here. so lonely.... miss them so much.. :-(

hell

oh my god... what i'm doing now? i'm just like in HELL!!!!! i don't like this place at all.. i doesn't feel happy since i'm coming here... i don't like the environment at here, the people, the food and many many..... when i can back to normal life?? i don't want stay at this suck place longer anymore.... just get me out from here.... please...... :-(

guys shouldnt be trust....

recently i'm really feel so sad and desperate.... he always try to fool me... he thinks i'm still is a little girl... dont know nothing. i really so mad on him... how can he do like that to me? does he still love me? does he still treat me as his girlfriend? can anyone let me know what i should do now? i'm miserable...... sometimes what he doing to me really make me so upset. i can't tolerate this kind people... moreover he is my boyfriend. sometimes i really hate and blame myself.. is it i didn't do well and treat him nicely? is it my fault? even so, he shouldn't always try say lie to me... i try be honest with him but he always make me so disappointed.. i already try give him some signal that i'm really angry with him but he doesn't care about it... i dont know he really dont know or pretend dont know. but what i'm really sure, he doesn't care so much than before. like what i say, men really can't be trusted. finally, the most suffer is ourself. sometimes i really want give him some chance but what he doing right now to me, is really unacceptable to me. if this few days, he still act like that.. i'm really give up on him already.
everytime we going out, i doesnt feel that we're couple. sometimes i want he try say some romance words to pujuk me... some jokes to make me laugh... but what he always told me is about his work, his friends, his family, his cousins and boring things.... it's really make me so bored. and everytime we going out is only thursday where is my off day. almost 1 month we just meet 4 times... is it normal for a couple? i dont think is normal.... i really dont know what he thinking.... i really fade up on him...... totally give up and disappointed.......
from now on, i wont trust on men easily already... they all really such a damn fucker people.... :-(

i need your care....

i need someone to care about me... love me...
always know what i want....
but he never know about it....
never....
he just know how to care himself...
all the priority is just about him only...
should i tell him what i want?
if i tell him, it become meaningless...
i just want him more care about me...
that's all i want... is it difficult??
sometimes i really think that we're not meant to be together...
maybe all of this is my mistakes...
my mistakes...
i shouldn't give us a hope...
i'm so regret now....

sorry

hi... i'm blogging again. Today is my off day. Quite bored because whole evening just stay at home. I suppose follow my friends go doing their passport but i finally didn't go. It's all because for my babe. We both so hardly to see each others.. i mean go dating la. Sometimes i really think i'm not so good for him. He always asking me whether when i will tell my parents about our relationship. Actually, is not me dont want tell them but i have to keep this from them 1st. You know what... my parents is not quite open minded in love relationship... they will think that if you're still in studying, better dont dating 1st. They scare will affect my studies.. I'm really so sorry babe.... you know i love you right...
today is last day for the application for university. Honestly, i really don't know the course that i choose is really is my interest. i'm miserable now..... but all is just wait the result from them. Actually, i'm the person who are dont have any confident. I always dont have confident on whatever i'm do....
ok la... i really don't want write so much ady.... bye.. :-)