guys shouldnt be trust....

recently i'm really feel so sad and desperate.... he always try to fool me... he thinks i'm still is a little girl... dont know nothing. i really so mad on him... how can he do like that to me? does he still love me? does he still treat me as his girlfriend? can anyone let me know what i should do now? i'm miserable...... sometimes what he doing to me really make me so upset. i can't tolerate this kind people... moreover he is my boyfriend. sometimes i really hate and blame myself.. is it i didn't do well and treat him nicely? is it my fault? even so, he shouldn't always try say lie to me... i try be honest with him but he always make me so disappointed.. i already try give him some signal that i'm really angry with him but he doesn't care about it... i dont know he really dont know or pretend dont know. but what i'm really sure, he doesn't care so much than before. like what i say, men really can't be trusted. finally, the most suffer is ourself. sometimes i really want give him some chance but what he doing right now to me, is really unacceptable to me. if this few days, he still act like that.. i'm really give up on him already.
everytime we going out, i doesnt feel that we're couple. sometimes i want he try say some romance words to pujuk me... some jokes to make me laugh... but what he always told me is about his work, his friends, his family, his cousins and boring things.... it's really make me so bored. and everytime we going out is only thursday where is my off day. almost 1 month we just meet 4 times... is it normal for a couple? i dont think is normal.... i really dont know what he thinking.... i really fade up on him...... totally give up and disappointed.......
from now on, i wont trust on men easily already... they all really such a damn fucker people.... :-(

i need your care....

i need someone to care about me... love me...
always know what i want....
but he never know about it....
never....
he just know how to care himself...
all the priority is just about him only...
should i tell him what i want?
if i tell him, it become meaningless...
i just want him more care about me...
that's all i want... is it difficult??
sometimes i really think that we're not meant to be together...
maybe all of this is my mistakes...
my mistakes...
i shouldn't give us a hope...
i'm so regret now....

sorry

hi... i'm blogging again. Today is my off day. Quite bored because whole evening just stay at home. I suppose follow my friends go doing their passport but i finally didn't go. It's all because for my babe. We both so hardly to see each others.. i mean go dating la. Sometimes i really think i'm not so good for him. He always asking me whether when i will tell my parents about our relationship. Actually, is not me dont want tell them but i have to keep this from them 1st. You know what... my parents is not quite open minded in love relationship... they will think that if you're still in studying, better dont dating 1st. They scare will affect my studies.. I'm really so sorry babe.... you know i love you right...
today is last day for the application for university. Honestly, i really don't know the course that i choose is really is my interest. i'm miserable now..... but all is just wait the result from them. Actually, i'm the person who are dont have any confident. I always dont have confident on whatever i'm do....
ok la... i really don't want write so much ady.... bye.. :-)

craps~~~

just found some old and newest photo...
so i want share with you all...
enjoy..

6AB (2008) xP

sg wang (2008) Blekkk..

graduation days (2007) fuiyoh...

Gua Niah(2008)

my lovely babe.. (2008)

the newest.. my co-work (2010)



actually still got a lot de... but i'm lazy lo...
haha.... :-)

i feel so unhappy now. i really don't know what he think... i'm really so disappointed with him. i suppose not give him any chances and trust him anymore. this time i really do a wrong decision.... how stupid am i... this time i really give up on him. i never will trust him anymore.... guys really cant be trust.... ......................................................................... T.T

Result, Hate and Love

hello everyone... is been long long time i didn't update my blog. kinda lazy to update... hehe.. XD
so today i was go take my STPM result at school. before i went to school, i'm was really damn nervous and my heart beat so fast. i was really scared. i scared that i will got bad result because i know i didn't do well on my examination. but after i saw my result, my heart felt quite happy and also a liitle bit sad because the result is not i excepted. i thought my PA will get A but is not A-.. because i know i really know how to do the paper. but what i got just A-. quite disappointed.... the PP also.. i thought will get A but is not. maybe they say it right. don't expect the result too high.. it's might not what you want it. therefore, i got this result i'm really feel blessed ady... i didn't ask too much from you God, i just want to be quite successful person that can make my life more better, so i hope You also can bless me that i can enter the university with my interest course. please... that's all i ask from you...
today when i went to school, i thought i can forget everything about what happen between them but i really can't do it. when i saw them, my eyes automatically will look others place because i really don't want see them anymore in my life. never..... so for whole day, i didn't talk with them even one greeting also don't have... i just can't do it. haiz... from now on, they will always disappear in my life forever..
btw, i wanna tell you all that i finally back together with him. maybe i do a right decision or maybe wrong but more days i with him, i more love him deeply. i can feel that he really treat me so nice and good. he really be serious on this relationship. so i will try my best to be a good and gentle girlfriend. i hope he always will love me and never leave me...
i love you babe.... muaxxxxxx.... :-)