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Why it is so difficult? I just want to live in simple life with simple happiness. Every friends is start avoiding me. They doesn't care about me anymore. There is still left 18 days before reach my birthday. This year, I still celebrate my birthday alone. I never expect very big celebration for me. I just wish I can have a simple dinner night with my family or close friends together with me. But I know it will never happen because they doesn't care about my everything. How I do can expect they will remember and celebrate my birthday. I am gonna step into 22 years old life. But I still feel I am doing nothing in my life for this long years. I am so sad and angry to myself. I start to give up.... I am really really really tired. I am tired. :(

想你

我还爱你。 你知道吗？我好好好好想你。。。

HAPPY DECEMBER!

Today is first day of December ( 1st December 2012). It is also last month for year 2012. Time really passed like a blink of eyes. Soon we will welcome a brand new year 2013 in 31 days left. I always ask myself. What I had done in my life in year 2012? Besides eat, sleep and play, what I have contribute to my life and society? I think nothing. Sometimes I really felt I am so useless person. I seen every of my friends is so successful in their life but I am still nothing. I already 22 year old and next year will be 23 years old. And I still don't know what I want. I am failure person.
This year Christmas, New Year and of course my Birthday, still celebrate alone by myself. Actually, I really want celebrate my birthday happily with my family and close friends. But I always don't have the chance to do it because I don't have close friends. I also want be like others hanging out with friends with fun, gossip-ing together, shopping together, flirting guys together... haha. I just don't have the chance. And I think I will never have the chance in my life.
I am so tired. I am tired to pretend someone who is not part of me. I want to be myself. I want to be Siu Mei again. I have been long time didn't have real laugh. I just want someone to comfort me and love me. I am still is a girl who have weak heart and fragile feeling. I also know how to cry. I am not strong as you think. :(
anyway, I hope this December month can make my wishes comes true. :) HAPPY DECEMBER!!

What is life?

What is life? I still trying to figure it out. Can I found my own life? :(

Busy busy busy!

Recently I was so rush with my tonnes of assignment. This would be my most busiest semester since I at university. Suddenly I cannot handle so much assignment at all. I need someone to share these works with me. Or maybe can comfort me. How's good is it if I have a boyfriend who can care and talk with me. But this I need to wait for long time. Hmm... I am gonna rush my assignment again right now. Bye. :)

Back to torture life..

Hi... I'm coming back blogging again. I have a lot things and feeling want to write in this blog. Firstly, my 2 months holiday is gone. I seem like did not doing anything during this holiday. Besides do the boring part time job, what else I was doing at the time? Ermm....  Had fun with my best friend. That's all I do during holiday. Am I seem like useless? I think yes...
Now I coming back to my ugly and disgusting university. Same routine again.... Sit in the room. Watch movies. Waiting time to eat and sleep. What else? No more.... This is my life. Luckily right now I am far away from my stupid friends. Finally, I no need facing them so much time. I really don't like see them. I hate to talk with them. forget them.....
What I hope now is I want leave this place as fast as I can. Everyday I am countdown the time till I finish my study at here. So I can back to KL forever. :) Please GOD.... Bless me~~ I beg you. Bless me everything is going smoothly. Thanks GOD!!