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2012-01-12T01:44:00.003+08:00

finally, i am back my comfort home... i love my home so much especially my bed... but i just half happy only because i know i will gonna alone again in this coming chinese new year. but it's not a problem for me because i used it. probably i just stay at home for whole new year..... :)

today i don't really want write so much.... yea... that's it... i gonna stop write now...

good night everyone... :D

BITCH

2012-01-09T00:59:00.002+08:00

You are my friend. Don't you can consider my situation right now? I am not rich as you.... I never expect you will said such words to me... you really make heartbreak... why?? even though i am not quite like you but i never will say such rude and hurt words to you.. but you did!!!! once again... you make disappointed again.... you better go to hell!!!!! :(

final countdown...

2011-12-31T21:40:00.002+08:00

Final countdown......
still left 2 hours ++ before reach year 2012... let's we countdown together..... :D
but the most saddest things is.. i need celebrate my new year by alone and this damn place!!!!
oh....
anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!! LET'S WE HAPPILY WELCOME ARRIVAL OF YEAR 2012... !!!! :D

2011-12-30T04:20:00.000+08:00

不管幸福来了没有。。。

开心就好。。。 :)

是时间睡觉了。。大家晚安。。

学不会的爱情。。。。

2011-12-30T03:09:00.000+08:00

I love this song so much... 学不会 by 林俊杰。。。

虽然我们恋爱很多次但是我们还是学不会去真正爱一个人。。。。

所以，我们还是永远学不会~~~ :(

2011-12-28T02:05:00.000+08:00

hi... it's 28th December 2011. My birthday just passed 2 days ago that is 26th December 2011. Finally I am 21 years old.. but I don't feel happy at all. it's not because i am getting old but it do remind me that i am still nothing even 21 years old. i am still is the person who still live in dream and not ambitious at all. what am i doing right now?? please~~ someone tell me. what am i suppose to do? i had been living for 21 year but i still do not know what i want in my life. does it sound ridiculous? yes. is it... everyone enjoying their 21 life and celebrate their 21 birthday with joyful but i just celebrated it in this stupid place and nothing special.. this is not i want. i want everyone know that today is my birthday.. and the most i want receive the wish from him but he didn't do it. how sad am i..... everyone say that when is your birthday, you may make 3 wishes..
first wishes : i want to show to the people who look down at me and think i will fail that i can be
successful.
second wishes : i hope i can success in my life.
and my third wishes is i hope i can meet my Mr Right soon. and i hope i won't get hurt again by anyone because the feeling is not good to try. :(
alright... that's all i want to write... good night everyone...

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO SIUMEI..... :)
merry christmas and happy new year~~~~

i am so idiot!!!

2011-11-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

i was been fooled by him again.... I swear I won't forgive him and I don't wish to see him again in my life!!!!!!! There are no men that can be trust~~~ i give up... :(

I am so stupid..... I am idiot..... T.T

give up on you...

2011-11-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

It's been long time I didn't write blog. Now I still left 3 days and the half before back to my university. Time really passed so fast.. After this holiday, I need wait more 2 month that I can back home again. I really don't want back there. That place really is hell for me. Some more, I feel don't want leave him even though I know he wouldn't ask me to stay. You know what, he ask me to get back together with him. He say he feel so sorry because he leave me and all is his fault. He say this time he really will get serious with me and will love me much that he can... Should I believe him? For me now, it's really hard for me to put so much trust and faith on someone especially he was hurt me before. But from now, he just say by facebook and texting me. He never show to me that he is sincere to ask me back to him. Never.... That's mean he never understand me what I need. How I can put my trust on him anymore?? I really hope he can see this so he will understand my feeling. But I know he won't.... I think I can't trust him anymore and there is no more chances between us. I won't never trust on love anymore unless there is miracle happen in front of me... i rather love myself than anyone.. Men can't be trust!!!!!

2011-09-17T00:15:00.001+08:00

It's quite a time I didn't write on this blog. It's probably I am too lazy to write or other reasons. Now I just started my third semester for my university life. However, I still feel so bored with this life. I can't stand with these life. I don't know why I want make myself so suffer. I found myself sometimes I really can't make any friend at here. Probably is my problem. Actually it's very hard for me to trust to one person. I don't know when the person is say true for me or when they can betray or cheat on me. Maybe because of this I hardly to trust them at all. The person that I love, he doesn't love me. Even looking on me.... Am I really too bad for you? I feel so disappointed on me. Forget it.... I don't want mention it anymore... :(

2011-07-22T18:25:00.000+08:00

Am I am desperate right now? So what I desperate for? I guess money? Little..... But the most I desperate most for is love. I need someone to love and care me right now. In my heart, actually I need most is love and caring so much. But I will always say to others that money is most important for me in my life. I always say that I doesn't need a man in my life to take care of me because I doesn't need them. But I lie!!! I lie to everyone. I need a man in my life. I really get jealous to others that they can get a boyfriend so fast. But why is me still doesn't have a boyfriend? Is it me too choosy? I can't easily dating with others guy while I am not truly love them. I really need find a guy that really loyal and love to me forever. And I also need make sure that he is the one for me. Does that also too hard for me? When I can find him? Can you faster appear in front of me? I need you badly. That's all I want to say... now my heart more relieve after say it out. now i gotta continue my life..... :-(

All I need......

2011-05-04T03:41:00.000+08:00

Oh God~~ What should I do now? I get fade up with my life. I just felt that my life no more colourful. All I got is black and white.. I need find back myself. But I don't know where I should start. I need some motivation. I also what happen to me recently. Actually I was thinking should I change my course now? I am not interested on this course at all. I want give up on it. I want learn what I like. I feel I am wasting my time now. I am waste my 3 years time with learning the course that I don't like. What should I do now? I am not a risk taker... I need some guide now. I want talk to someone but who willing to hear I talk? No one.. because I don't have true friends. They all just is faker for me. I can't accept their fake feeling on me. I am confused now.
I miss my family and HIM too. You know, I guess he have a new girlfriend. I suppose feel happy when I know he can live happily but I am not happy. But I am sad and angry. What he wrote on his status in facebook and some comment. He never wrote those things for me at all. Am I is a failed girlfriend? Or I am the worst girlfriend? I guess yes. I can't make him feel happy when with me. Because I am who I am. I can't be other else just because of you. I can't. I am sorry.... I can't be other and fake to you. I will feel guilty if I do so. But you all will never know. You will never who I am. Actually I just need someone to understand me. You just need understand me only. Is it too over for you? I am not cheerful person... I can't make anyone laugh. I am not the person but because I don't like you know my other side, so I had to pretend to be happy and always laugh. I read a lot of horoscope description. I am capricorn. And what they say that capricorn people is a person have full responsibility, workaholic, mature and so on. And also they mention that capricorn people don't like show off. About love, actually capricorn love to have a relationship but they are not dare to love other people. It's because they can't accept any hurting from their partner. Capricorn people is very serious about love. Once they get dating, they will do their best and give the best to their partner. They won't play with their love. That's why they scare to be hurt. It's really true. I scare to be hurt by my partner. I hate hear like ' I don't have any feeling on you' or ' how about we break up'.... So from now on, I am not dare to love other people... because I need a serious and mature guy that I can depending. Actually, you don't always see me so tough and not scare anything. Honestly, I am not strong like you think. In my world, I just a small girl that need to be loved by someone. Sometimes if i really get married, I willing to give up anything include my career and stay happily with my hubby. That is my dream..... <3 <3

i love you

2011-04-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

you know what.. i never say about my family. because i don't like mention my family to my friends. i don't want they know so much about my family. actually, i quite jealous on some family that they so close and warm. but now, i can't feel any warmer from my family. it's doesn't like when i was kid. we always laugh... even me, my sister and brother always play together. i miss those moment. but now maybe we already grown up and have our own life to go. so day by day, our relationship become not close anymore. sometimes we always will argue. actually, i want say to them that i really do appreciate our family. but i just hard to say i care about them. i really wish we can back to our sweet time... i wish we never grow up. and for my parents, i am sorry if i always argue with you both... but my heart always be with you both. i wish i could back to home now and accompany you. i really miss you both. i just can say at here that i love you so much.....
mum and dad... i love you and you both will always is my great parents.....

i need someone.....

2011-04-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

where all the friends when i needed them? where are you? i feel so lonely.... i really can't stand anymore. i hate the loneliness feeling so much.... i don't like to be lonely.. but who will know? no one will know. they won't care about my feeling.... even i treat them as my best friend. but what they repay to me? nothing... even just a single call or message. no.... am i really exist in their life? or i am just dreaming for whole my life? or am i too stupid that i treat them as my best friend? i really don't have a friend to talk. i looked on my phone book. is really a lot contacts in my phone list but none one of them i can call. no one...... i just hope that there have someone can sharing my feeling together. i feel so suffer.... i just need someone besides me when i need hug, warm and everything that can make me feel safe. i feel so unsecure....

heart broken

2011-04-14T02:13:00.000+08:00

I still remember how we met... how we start to be together... i remember everything clearly. But do you still remember me? Do you will still looking on my facebook profile? If we meet up in the street or somewhere, do you will come and greet me? Do you know i so miss you right now? Every day, hour, minute and second i always miss and think of you. But you won't know it..... this time i really hurt so much. It's never recover since you said want break up with and you did not love me anymore...... I am heart broken~~~~ T.T

miserable again

2011-04-01T14:29:00.001+08:00

hi... It's me again. I am back for blogging again. Today is friday and quite boring day for me. Nothing else I can do besides movie-ing. :D Maybe I need start do revision for marketing. Next tuesday will be my second mid term exam for marketing. I still got four chapter haven't read yet and yes, I am still in dreaming. My mind still in blurring condition. Oh gosh~~~ What am I doing right now? Until now, I still don't know what I am study for this whole semester. I just felt I live in my dream. Please.... someone help me!!!!

I start miss him again. OMG!!! Why he never leave from my mind till now??? I still can't forget about him. He always appear in my mind. Can you just leave from my life? I don't wish to live in your shadow anymore. Just GET OUT!!!!! >.<"

miserable

2011-04-01T03:52:00.000+08:00

I am miserable right now. I don't know what I want to do now. Day by day, I felt loss my energy. I want find back myself. Who I am now? What happened to me? Can someone tell me? I still don't know what I want in my life. Sometimes I really get jealous on someone that they can find what they want. I need some inspiration and motivation now. I am lost~~~ I just felt that now I trapped in a huge jungle. I try to find road to get out from the jungle but I couldn't. I can find any road.. every surrounds on me so strange for me and dark. I am afraid. I need someone guide me out from the jungle. I wait.. wait.. wait... but the person never show up. Where the person gone? I need you badly... What I mean at here is I need happiness. I need love... I need caring... I need hugging. But no one love me anymore. I started felt I had been isolated.

Sometimes I wonder, when I can found my true love? I miss the moment I was been love, hugged, and..... I miss those moment with him. But I know we can't turning back anymore. God had given us second chance but we still can't make it succeed. Maybe all of this is fate. I believe on destiny. I know someday my true love will appear in front of me. Actually I still believe in love if I really can truly feel it with my heart. I hope I can find it soon~~~~ :-)

Gonna study hard for my final exam... good luck siu mei!!!! :D

my 1st blog in 2011

2011-02-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

So this is my first blog in 2011. What i miss at here? oh ya.. happy new year 2011. Sorry that i late... I'm really not in mood to write blog. And some more, i lazy to write it. Currently, i already starting my second semester. And... i still not happy with my life now. It's getting worse. I so hate this place and people at here. I hate it so much.... I really want my previous life.. where i feel so free and nothing to do. I hate my life now. Especially my idiot friends... now i getting far from them because i don't like see them. They really make me eyesore... damn it!!! When i start talking about them, i really get mad. I don't know what my fault from my life that i can knew these friends... They really so embarrassing me so much... How come they don't know nowadays fashion? and lifestyle too.... they just like a kampung people come out to town... oh my god!!! okay. stop talking about them...
Valentine just gone.... i still remember i spent my first valentine with him. every single moment with him is my most precious moment for me... i remember it so clearly. sometimes when i recall back, my tears will falling down.... i am crying.... by alone. Who knows? The wong siu mei that they know is tough, no feeling when watch sad movie or love movie... you know what? i do.... i do have feeling but i just never show in front of you all. i hide it in my heart... and cry by myself in room.. I don't want you all look my crying face... I want hide all my sadness feeling from you. sometimes, i really felt i still love him. If now he find me back and asking for together, i probably will say yes because i do love you now. But i don't know i can handle it anymore... because that time you really make heart broken so badly.... till now, it never recover..... it's still bleeding and i crying every night when i remember how you treated me nicely and badly.... it's so hurt.....................

christmas and my birthday

2010-12-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

today is christmas day... hmm... no plan.. every my friends busy going out with their own friends. i guess this year my christmas day is be lonely again... celebrate with myself... tomorrow is my birthday.. i also almost forget it if i didn't look back calendar. do anyone forget my birthday? especially him. do he forget about my birthday? do you think he will message me on tomorrow? i really don't know.. probably yes. he will forget my birthday. now i really don't think so much. i just want get through my life with happy and laughing. i don't want think about dating anymore because i know i won't happy with love. better love myself... xD
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SIU MEI!!!! finally, i am officially 20 year old... haha... i just start enjoy my 20 years old life....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! :-)

~~~

2010-12-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

recently, i started realize something that upset me. actually in my life, i don't have any true friend. all the friend that i thought will be my best friend or good to me doesn't care about me. i just felt that they just pretending in front of me. i can feel it... i just want find a friend to come out and watch movie or have a drink with me also so difficult. they give me a lot of excuse that i think unacceptable. if you really treat me as your good friend, no matter how many times you already watch the movies, you still will accompany me to watch again. but they aren't.... why? some of people think that i am a person who loves going out... i really love to but no one want accompany me. i don't have any friend that can call... you know, i'm just like them. sitting in my house for a month without going out with friend... but i still lying others i was happy hanging out with my friend because i don't want they know i actually is feel lonely. what can i do else? i just can tell lie.... because i know that i will be a lonely person in my life....
and some more, usually is me tease on other people but now... time is change. now i become the person who let other tease on me without fighting back. because i tired with that behavior. maybe i become more mature and i know doing like that is immature.... i don't want talk so much with that such person... you know what, i really quite sad when they doing like that to me.
i don't have friend.......
i don't have friend......
i don't have friend......
i don't have friend......
enough!!!!!
i like be lonely!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the friend that i shouldn't appreciate anymore

2010-11-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

i'm totally disappointed with you. i never think you will do such things to me. i totally heart broken... from now on, i won't care so much to you anymore like i did before. please don't blame me because you force me to do like that to you. if you want blame, just blame on yourself. you know what, i can be cruel as you wish for... if you really want it. i really mad on you... >.<""'

from now on, i will lost you this friend in my life.

miss him badly

2010-11-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

i feel so lonely. i need some courage from someone... please~~~ i really felt that now i just like useless person. exam is just around the corner but now i'm still in dreaming. i never try put any effort on my studies. i really so fail in my life... i fail everything. i need someone give me some advice and support... the love 1 had give up on me and the one that i love won't give me any courage and love because he will never know my feeling to him. yesterday i was had a dinner with him. he sit at my beside. i try being myself and give the best impression to him. i know we both won't happen anything but i just want he know actually i'm not bad at all. sometimes i really miss him badly till whole night my mind always thinking of him. even i was dreaming about him. he really give me a great impact since from first time i met him. i still remember how we met... it's so clearly in my mind now. i couldn't forget it. i think i'm really start insane without him. if i really be together with him, i really can feel safeness with him and love. his maturity really attracted me so much. i love be with these guy. i know he is not a very love romance but i know he can do much better if i know he deeply.
christmas and new year is near... i really this year i will have wonderful and memorable christmas and new year day... :-)

my true feeling..

2010-11-02T04:12:00.000+08:00

actually, what is love? what is friendship? why till now i still can't feel it? let we start with friendship. in my life, no one was used to be my true friends till i found them. they are the people who are make me believe that in this world still have true friend spirit exist. i love being together and hang out with them. i'm happy that i can knew them in my life. when i saw them, they just like my stars that always bright me up so i won't always live in darkness. sometimes we can do some crazy stuff together but of course is legal things ya... we just like to yum cha together at same old place. haha.... i like it so much. when with them, i can be myself. talking jokes, tease them without no need thinking who they are. i just can say anything without thinking. you know, when i with others people chat, i need think about what i should say or shouldn't. is so suffering for me. is them.... they totally change my life ever. i love them so much... i really hope on future, we still is best best friend forever till we get old. i really can't imagine when we get old, how do we look like? sure some hold tongkat, wear grandpa/grandma clothes and our hair all become white.... so at here, i really wanna thanks to them..... Ling Kenn, Wei Pin, Onn Yong~~~
you three will be my true and best friend... it won't change till i die.
about love, i really didn't hope so much on it. in my life, i just will depends on myself... i won't count on others. and i will put all my love to my studies, career, family and myself. i just will trust myself. i trust that without guy, i still can live better... i will do the best as i can.. i won't make myself fail...
good luck siumei..... :-)

i hate you

2010-11-01T18:14:00.000+08:00

finally, he found a new girlfriend and his fb status state in a relationship... should i feel happy, sad or angry? but now my feeling tell me that i'm on sad... i wanna cry but i just can cry in my heart. i'm so hurt now.... when we was dating that time, he never want change his status on that time. is he really get serious with this girl? what he really do now really hurt me so much.... i really want beat him now!!!! why i will knew such this bad guy in my life? because of you, now i'm nt dare to have a new relationship with others guy. i'm scare... i'm scare they also will leave me like you did to me. i hate you so much!!!!! i never will forgive you in my life anymore... NEVER!!!! i swear with my life!!!!! :-(

F**K YOU

2010-10-20T01:30:00.000+08:00

why they want me mention again about that things? i already try to avoid from answering his question... why he still want me say it out? and let others know my past... i really terrible sad when i say it out. i know that wont any guys anymore say that words to me. i know it... actually, i'm really desire to hear that words again. you know, how happily the girls if some guys tell her that words. yea i know i wont find any guys that really like and love me. i mean maybe i cant find boyfriend again... i know myself. im not dare to love someone... that's my weaknesses.... but doesnt they need say like that? it's really hurt me... they just think it's just a jokes... but did you know, what you say from your mind, it's really your true words. that is how you looking to me. if not, you wont say like that to me. have you been think before when you say something? you really think i'm not care about it? you think you put the picture i'm not hurt? you are humiliating me now!!!! what you mean now i cant find any boyfriend anymore!!! dont you get it? i thought you can care someone feeling but i was wrong. u're not the guys that i can trust and respect. i'm deeply disappointed with you. i really don't know how i can face to you again. i also is a girls...... you think i want what i look now??? you all will never know what i'm thinking.... what i want... all i can do is just pretend nothing happen and be happy in front of you all... this time you really hurt me badly badly~~~ T.T

2010-10-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

what i am doing right now? sitting in front of computer and doing nothing... exam is just around the corner and i still haven't read or revise any book yet. am i will fail? am i is a fail person? i think i am... i never did anythings well as i wish for... never in my life. what i wish for never become true. why YOU treat me like this? i just want a normal normal life... is it very difficult? i want someone to care to me... forget it. i just don't want think back the past who is changed my whole person.
i don't write so much... it's so painful to me when i talk about it....

2010-10-09T12:23:00.000+08:00

hi... quite long time i didnt write this blog... recently i really dont know what i'm doing now. the hatred feeling to this stupid jungle and friend at here is more deep... i really so suffer at here... i want back KL now!!!! now i start realize that i cant be friend with them bcoz their personality is not match with me at all. they are so childish and immature. they like do something that they think very fun but what i think is so shameful.... i really dont know what the hell they are thinking... are their brain full with shit?? forget it... i dont want mention them....
i dont know what i need to write already... i better stop here... T.T

my future?

2010-09-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

i feel miserable now.. i still don't know what i want now. sometimes when i think about what future i want to be, my mind will become blank. i can't see my future at all. can you tell me what should i do now? since i started studying at university, my future became more blured... i don't know the purpose i entered university. is it i really want become a manager in someday? or i really have talent in business field? i really dont know.... what i know now is i just want make me happy and free because i ady tied myself long time ago. i always forced myself to study because i don't want someday i become sales girls in shopping centre. i want prove to others that i can do it what i want. i won't let others look down on me!!! so how much i don't like to study, i also will graduate in good result. i want earn many many money.... that's only i want to do now.
by education, it's can guarantee your future....

help....

2010-09-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

oh my god... i start miss him.. what the hell i'm doing right now? i already told myslef that we both is impossible will together but my mind still keep thinking of him. when i saw him on that day, i never said a word to him or looked at him. i don't know why.... i can't control my feeling to him. i think i start fancy on him... pls help me get rid of this feeling from me... i really can't fall in love on him... cannot.... siu mei... you and him won't be together 1 because he had girlfriend already.... so just let it go....

dream spoiled.....

2010-08-09T10:12:00.001+08:00

this time i really broke down... how come i can't get the ptptn loan? so how i want to spend my 1st semester with my own money? i really can't afford it... what should i do now? i don't want use my mum money since she also not enough to use..... i haven't told her about this things. why this things will happen on me? that's not fair... are you really want me to learn how to be orang yang tahu berjimat? how i gonna spend my expense at here? tell me...... where i can find some money to use now? i really so desperate for money now...... please..... just give me some way to move okay.... i really need this money.... please........ T.T

boring day to goes...

2010-07-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

hi.. i'm blogging again. today doesn't have any special things happen. it's just a normal and bored day to goes.... after the 1st class, i and my friends went to dataran perdana to register the squash club. it's took me about rm10 for register fees. luckily that time they don't have the shirt.. if not, i need to pay more rm20 again. after that, i went to class again.. in my life, this is my first time i attending class with listening to music for whole class. i never do that before. but it is because what the lecturer doesn't need to listen up. it's such a useless things to hear. after that, we go met with my other friends who are very like to talk... it's not my type. after for a while i decided to go back my hostel because it's too boring to me. when i arrived hostel, i went back to my room and changing. today evening i been slept for 2 hours where i think quite long time. when i wake up, then ready for dinner... eat again with them. sometimes i really can't tahan what they talk about. it's not my topic.... and now, start blogging at here and write crap at here...
after you read this post, do you think my life at here is wonderful or terrible? i can't decide it.... how about you tell me what is the answer?
wait for my next post...... :-(

2010-07-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

i just want apply for loan... is it very difficult? why the ptptn so troublesome?? i really hate the government doing thing... not sistematic at all... damn it!!! just forget it..
now i really want back to my home... i miss my home so much... can anyone make the time pass more faster?? make it after 3 years.... so i can back to my home qucikly... i feel so alone at here. so lonely.... miss them so much.. :-(

hell

2010-07-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

oh my god... what i'm doing now? i'm just like in HELL!!!!! i don't like this place at all.. i doesn't feel happy since i'm coming here... i don't like the environment at here, the people, the food and many many..... when i can back to normal life?? i don't want stay at this suck place longer anymore.... just get me out from here.... please...... :-(

guys shouldnt be trust....

2010-06-12T01:43:00.000+08:00

recently i'm really feel so sad and desperate.... he always try to fool me... he thinks i'm still is a little girl... dont know nothing. i really so mad on him... how can he do like that to me? does he still love me? does he still treat me as his girlfriend? can anyone let me know what i should do now? i'm miserable...... sometimes what he doing to me really make me so upset. i can't tolerate this kind people... moreover he is my boyfriend. sometimes i really hate and blame myself.. is it i didn't do well and treat him nicely? is it my fault? even so, he shouldn't always try say lie to me... i try be honest with him but he always make me so disappointed.. i already try give him some signal that i'm really angry with him but he doesn't care about it... i dont know he really dont know or pretend dont know. but what i'm really sure, he doesn't care so much than before. like what i say, men really can't be trusted. finally, the most suffer is ourself. sometimes i really want give him some chance but what he doing right now to me, is really unacceptable to me. if this few days, he still act like that.. i'm really give up on him already.
everytime we going out, i doesnt feel that we're couple. sometimes i want he try say some romance words to pujuk me... some jokes to make me laugh... but what he always told me is about his work, his friends, his family, his cousins and boring things.... it's really make me so bored. and everytime we going out is only thursday where is my off day. almost 1 month we just meet 4 times... is it normal for a couple? i dont think is normal.... i really dont know what he thinking.... i really fade up on him...... totally give up and disappointed.......
from now on, i wont trust on men easily already... they all really such a damn fucker people.... :-(

i need your care....

2010-05-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

i need someone to care about me... love me...
always know what i want....
but he never know about it....
never....
he just know how to care himself...
all the priority is just about him only...
should i tell him what i want?
if i tell him, it become meaningless...
i just want him more care about me...
that's all i want... is it difficult??
sometimes i really think that we're not meant to be together...
maybe all of this is my mistakes...
my mistakes...
i shouldn't give us a hope...
i'm so regret now....

sorry

2010-03-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

hi... i'm blogging again. Today is my off day. Quite bored because whole evening just stay at home. I suppose follow my friends go doing their passport but i finally didn't go. It's all because for my babe. We both so hardly to see each others.. i mean go dating la. Sometimes i really think i'm not so good for him. He always asking me whether when i will tell my parents about our relationship. Actually, is not me dont want tell them but i have to keep this from them 1st. You know what... my parents is not quite open minded in love relationship... they will think that if you're still in studying, better dont dating 1st. They scare will affect my studies.. I'm really so sorry babe.... you know i love you right...
today is last day for the application for university. Honestly, i really don't know the course that i choose is really is my interest. i'm miserable now..... but all is just wait the result from them. Actually, i'm the person who are dont have any confident. I always dont have confident on whatever i'm do....
ok la... i really don't want write so much ady.... bye.. :-)

craps~~~

2010-03-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

just found some old and newest photo...
so i want share with you all...
enjoy..

6AB (2008) xP

sg wang (2008) Blekkk..

graduation days (2007) fuiyoh...

Gua Niah(2008)

my lovely babe.. (2008)

the newest.. my co-work (2010)

actually still got a lot de... but i'm lazy lo...
haha.... :-)

2010-03-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

i feel so unhappy now. i really don't know what he think... i'm really so disappointed with him. i suppose not give him any chances and trust him anymore. this time i really do a wrong decision.... how stupid am i... this time i really give up on him. i never will trust him anymore.... guys really cant be trust.... ......................................................................... T.T

Result, Hate and Love

2010-02-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

hello everyone... is been long long time i didn't update my blog. kinda lazy to update... hehe.. XD
so today i was go take my STPM result at school. before i went to school, i'm was really damn nervous and my heart beat so fast. i was really scared. i scared that i will got bad result because i know i didn't do well on my examination. but after i saw my result, my heart felt quite happy and also a liitle bit sad because the result is not i excepted. i thought my PA will get A but is not A-.. because i know i really know how to do the paper. but what i got just A-. quite disappointed.... the PP also.. i thought will get A but is not. maybe they say it right. don't expect the result too high.. it's might not what you want it. therefore, i got this result i'm really feel blessed ady... i didn't ask too much from you God, i just want to be quite successful person that can make my life more better, so i hope You also can bless me that i can enter the university with my interest course. please... that's all i ask from you...
today when i went to school, i thought i can forget everything about what happen between them but i really can't do it. when i saw them, my eyes automatically will look others place because i really don't want see them anymore in my life. never..... so for whole day, i didn't talk with them even one greeting also don't have... i just can't do it. haiz... from now on, they will always disappear in my life forever..
btw, i wanna tell you all that i finally back together with him. maybe i do a right decision or maybe wrong but more days i with him, i more love him deeply. i can feel that he really treat me so nice and good. he really be serious on this relationship. so i will try my best to be a good and gentle girlfriend. i hope he always will love me and never leave me...
i love you babe.... muaxxxxxx.... :-)

new hairstyle

2010-01-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

hihi..
change new hairstyle ady...
i quite like this hairstyle... really suit me lolx..
haha...
give some opinion lolx..

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2010-01-07T17:37:00.000+08:00

recently busy with works... no time to blogging.. haizz.. it's so boring.
speechless***

great moment

2009-12-27T01:01:00.000+08:00

25th december 2009
i went to pavillion to celebrate christmas with bee peng, wei pin and foo meng.
we had our delicious dinner at Pepper Lunch
then we had supper at Pappa Rich..
wow... that night, i was so full till cant move.
i was happy that night..
thanks friends...

me and foo meng

me and bee peng

so yesterday 26th december 2009 is my birthday.
so now i sing a birthday to myself
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIUMEI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~

hehe...
xoxo.. :-)

tomorrow i will go to Pulau Ketam with my best friends..
yeah~~~

bad christmas year for me

2009-12-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

hoho~~merry christmas to all of you
i think this year christmas celebration will be very great
i thought this year i can celebrate christmas but i'm wrong
because of something happened on yesterday, it's was make me no mood to celebrate ady.
i'm really so disappointed with my friend.
i don't know how to say it. my heart really broken...
i didn't excepted she will say the word to me.
is her friends that just knew 2 or 3 years more important to her than 13 years friends?
i really don't know what she thinking.
from yesterday, i didn't want message her or even see her.
my heart are not allow me to do that.
maybe i really give up with her.
i don't want talk about her anymore.
forget it....
anyway, i just hope i won't lost this friend..
T.T

boring day

2009-12-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

what a exhausted day.... and boring day too.. today i and bee peng stand at the shop for whole day with doing nothing. no customers..... no entertaiment..... WTF!!!! damn hell boring.... standing at there for 9 hours by doing nothing. it's really drive me crazy!!!!!! tomorrow is my last day... i swear i won't back to do these part time job anymore. now my leg so pain.... >.<"
gonna go to bed now.... so sleepy..
good night..
xoxo

my future?

2009-12-16T14:14:00.000+08:00

why every people have the own dream while i don't have? why they know what they want while i still don't know nothing? why? why? why? this word 'why' had been in my mind very long time already but i still can't figure it out. what happen to me? i thought this simple word seem so easy for me but the truth is not. i had been living for 19 years (1 week more), but i still don't know what i want in my life. for example, many my friends even family always asking me " what course you want to take when you're enter university?" i was took a long time to answer them. then i simply said " oh... maybe business or any course related to art stream." did i look answer the question?? maybe... i guess. but actually, i really don't want enter any university because i don't want study anymore. i really feel tired and boring. when i look at the book, i will feel dizzy and headache. but what can do if didn't continue study? work? work as what?? promoters or waitress for my whole life? no.. no..... definitely NO!! so i always force myself to study because i don't want be like them. standing at supermarkets for whole life!!!! i don't want be like them....... really don't want. so from now on, no matter how difficult the road, i will try my best to go through it. for my better future life......
i think i talk a lot crap at here.... just wanna express my feeling in here. now i feeling better...
that's all....
xoxo

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2009-12-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

hi everyone... it's been long time i didn't blogging. Last week i just finish my most terrific examination (STPM). finally, i can get over from it. actually i can guess my result will be not so good because i didn't do well on it. but i think still can pass few subject... hopefully. Now i really don't want think about it. i scare my hope to pass to more fade away... it's because i always thinking about the mistakes i had done in exam. arrrggghh....... forget it!!! >.<"
recently, i always hanging out with my best friends. We always hanging out to shopping mall( of course window shopping).. haha... somemore, we also have a walk at pasar malam at Cheras. That was my first time to go pasar malam at Cheras. it's had a lot of thing was selling at there but i didn't buy anything from there because it was too crowded. OMG... that time really was got a lot lot lot people at there till i can't breath... i swear, i won't back to that place anymore.
this friday till sunday, i will be working as part time for 3 days at Giordano ( Brem Mall). after this, 23 till 27 Dec, i also will be working part time selling coffee at 1 Utama for 5 days.. the salary is quite moderate ( RM 300 not include commision yet). this money enough for me to buy new clothes.. haha....
i think this all only...
gonna go to bed...
xoxo..

hanging out with my babes

2009-10-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

hmm... yesterday i and with my babe, Amanda went to Times Square for hang out.. i go monorail byself while amanda waited me at there after her works. so poor my amanda... haha... :-) after we arrived at times square, we quickly went to cinema to purchase movie ticket 'Surrogates'. it's quite nice.. this movie telling us that even using surrogates is good and benefit to us. moreover, surrogates is really made our life more easier but in my opinion, surrogates is a bad ways to solve human being problems. if you got watch this movie, you will know what i meant about...

after that, i and amanda decided to shop for a while. we looking around the shop and find whether have any suitable clothes for us or not. i saw some clothes is quite nice but i dont have uch money to buy it. haizz.. so disappointed. but nevermind, one day sure i can buy it... then we felt hungry so we spot some best restaurant. finally we spotted resturant Bar.B.Q Plaza. we decided choose this restaurant. then we ordered 1 supreme mixed set which include beef, pork, squid and more... then others side orders.. here was our yummy food that we ordered.. haha..

is it nice?? that time we really so full.. need exercise already... haha.. after that, we went home by taking KTM and amanda friends sent me back home. how nice is them... thank you so much.. :-)

hmm.. i think that's all only.

bye~~ (^.^)

new hair style

2009-09-24T15:49:00.000+08:00

hihi~~ change my hair style ady..
i received a lot comment some said pretty and cute..
and some said not good and pretty for me..
nevermind.. at least i have try before right..
haha~~
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tada.. this is my new hair syle..
give some comment ya..
be honest.. i dont mind 1...
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do you think this hair style suitable for me??
for me, i think kinda weird..

hehe~~

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2009-09-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to write la..
just now feel so boring.
nothing to do
just stay at home and surf Facebook and blogging
later need tidy up my room because it's too messy
haha..
after that, plan to revising book but i know i won't do it
maybe i guess
hehe
anyway, gotta go now..
bye.. :-)

MV of the week

2009-09-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

那一年共你车厢中遇见
遗留那锁匙离你分开这两边
相信共你这遇见牵动我心思
如若再见只想看你一遍

这一年共你相识中再遇见
还你那锁匙路过秋天的雨天
想你还会似上次开心走到我身边
离别再见你看着我这年

*下半生跟她再遇见不会再相见
未改变牵手的那天紧抱才发现
我始终始终爱过她走过的从前
未讲再见为何又离去我身边

下半生多得有着你跟我爱一遍
未改变深深盼那天再续未了缘
我会想想跟你抱近亲吻你的脸
下一世都会再相见

从新的跟你爱一遍

那一年共你开心走过路远
从前那心事共你欣赏这尾端
跟你人海中遇见牵手写过那些诗
原来爱你这故事太相似

Repeat *

想跟你抱近亲吻你的脸
从新的跟你爱一遍

this song is nice.... hope you all can enjoy.. :-)

jokes

2009-09-09T14:51:00.000+08:00

~SUNDAY SCHOOL LESSON~

Little Janice was not the best student in Sunday school. Usually she slept through class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, “Tell me Janice, who created the universe?” When Janice didn’t stir, little Johnny, a boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear.

“God Almighty!” shouted Janice and the teacher said, “Very good” and Janice fell back asleep.

A while later the teacher asked Janice, “Who is our Lord and Saviour.” But, Janice didn’t even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again.

“Jesus Christ!” shouted Janice and the teacher said, “Very good,” and Janice fell back asleep.

Then the teacher asked Janice a third question. “What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?” and again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin.

This time Janice jumped up and shouted, “If you stick me with that thing one more time, I’ll break it in half and stick it up your ass!”

… the teacher fainted!

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2009-08-28T12:33:00.000+08:00

oh~~~ boring day!!!
later gonna go tuition anymore..
besides this, did have anything that i can still do it?
because i think my life is too bored!!!!
my godness~~~
don't know what gonna to write anymore....
wordless**
>.<"

regret

2009-08-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

i really feel so regret on one thing. i regret i let him go.... i not supposed let him go and just give up like this. i should keep him by my side but i didn't. even one word to keep him i also didn't say it. now i really feel so regretted...... so sorry to him. now he had found his partner life and probably his partner life is more better than me much much more.. all i can do now is just blessing him to be always happy. i will always remember you.... i really do.. hope you too. i hope you won't forget me.... love you always.. xoxo

one more thing... this is specially for one of my primary friend... we are not mean to abandoned you and don't want treat you as our friend. maybe on that time your college friend really annoying them. so i hope you are not easily give up on your friend.. try to fix it. don't be like me. feel regret like now is not use anymore... all the best for you..
hope you got read my word for you...

??????_

2009-08-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

now is already 12.44am.. and i still can't make my eyes close. i don't know why.. i just can't sleep yet. i just feel my heart that it will have something happen but i don't know what is it. i can't make my mind and heart calm down. haizz... i dont know what i want say about... now my mind is blank... maybe i too stress recently about my trial exam or i missing someone in my heart?? is it these reason make so frustrated?? i really don't know... can someone tell me? now i need something that can release my stress.... when i back to school, i need pretend to be happy because i don't want my friends know my problem and you know, i am the person who like to keep my secret and i dont like talk about my problem with somebody even my family member. this is my personality... so if some friends thought me is a honest person or always say something straight forward, i think that friends haven't know me well.... actually, not a lot of my friends know me very well.. i mean is my personality not about you all know where i live, what stars that i like the most, what food and drinks i like and hate.... not like that. no one know me.... and i also don't want anyone understand me and suddenly say to me that you want help me. that's not my style... whatever.... i just wanna share my feeling with someone that i trust most especially with my one special person in my life.. but i haven't meet yet.. maybe someday.. i guess so. whatever how stress am i... my life is still going on..... sleep, eat, watch and so on........... >.<

sixth form council farewell party

2009-08-16T14:02:00.000+08:00

SIXTH FORM COUNCIL FAREWELL PARTY 2009...

yesterday night is my school sixth form council farewell party
actually this party should be held at hotel or somewhere but is not at school
but because of now everywhere got a H1N1 cases.. so we have to doing at school
but even this party at school, all juniors was not make us seniors not dissapointed
they all was make tha party like we attending a academy awards...
got red carpet walk fame, signature and much more..
quite interesting and funny..
for me, the best part that i like most is THE DANCING!!!
is really so fun especially when we all was dance the high school musical song
"we're all together"
wow... fun!!!
anyway, thank you very much...
here's are the pic that i had taken yesterday
just quite little only..
enjoy...

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2009-08-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

it's been long time i didn't blogging
if i'm not wrong, last update was on 17 july
recently, i'm really busy with studies
*PREPARING FOR MY STPM*** SIGH

from now, i just left 2 months more only
pretty scare because this is my first time to be having a big exam in my life
*THE PMR AND SPM CAN'T INCLUDE LA COZ IT'S NOT SO IMPORTANT** :-P
now i already start do revision but my mind still on blurring
sometimes i also don't know what i am revise it
this really make me so frustrated
what i suppose to do??
when my mind try to concentrate on my study but suddenly my mind will thinking about other else and some useless things 1

I CAN'T GIVE UP BECAUSE THIS IS MY FUTURE

you know, now i really so mad on them
they really is 38 people
i really don't understand on them but i also i don't want understand it
haizz.. i also don't talk about them
make me no mood at all

anyway, i just wanna quckily finish my studies then i will be free..
yeah~~~~~
MAY GOD BLESS ME AND HIM*
:-)

helpless

2009-07-18T12:17:00.000+08:00

oh gosh... what am i doing now?? can anyone tell me? now my feeling just like enter a maze.. i seem like already so long inside the maze but i cant find the way out. nobody help me out from there. i really helpless... actually it's just like me now. i dont know what i want now. now just left 3 months only before my STPM exam. i really so scare that i will fail the exam. but i know this 3 months i still can change my life.. from now on, i will always telling to myself that "siu mei, you can do it. you can do well in your exam nor your life". ya... sure i can do it. good luck to you siu mei!!!!
next week i will be having my july test.. now i gonna go to do my revision.
just wish me good luck... :-)

sad sad sad

2009-07-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

today i really so sad.... i got my MUET result in this morning. i expect to got Band 3 but i just got band 2 only. what i suppose to do now? now i just can reseat back the exam and get more good result... when i saw my result, i really get shocked. it's because i didnt expect that my speaking and listening will get so low marks... oh my god... why these things will happen on me?? i really cant accept it..
from now on, i really need more hardworking and i need to get good result in my STPM. if this time i fail my exam, that's mean i fail my life and no future in my life. i really dont want talk so much... just wish me good luck ya... ;-)

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2009-07-11T16:26:00.000+08:00

hello my blog... it's been long time i didnt write blog. it's because had something happened on me this recently. really a lot things happened... i also dont mentioned about it... let it pass...
monday i will get my MUET result.. i quite scare. but honestly, i really so scare. if i really get band 3, i already so happy. my STPM still got 3 months left... till noew i still havent start revision yet.. maybe got a bit. i really too lazy till i dont want study. what suppose i do now? please give me some guide... and now got one people always give me trouble. she really so mean and jerk... i really hope this year quickly pass it.. i really so suffering. because of studies, i already miss a lot of things... this year, what's come to me is sadness and hatred only. no else anymore. why i say like this?? it's all because.... something. i dont want say it.
oh my god... when i can finish my studies?? i really cant stand anymore. now what i hope is quickly finish my studies and of course get good result by the way. and also meet my partner life too... i know that's quite hard for me but i really put a lot of hope on it. so wish me good luck...
GOD bless me... thx..
:-)

dating??

2009-06-05T22:34:00.001+08:00

actually i also dont know what i want to write... my friend ask me to join her friends go to Taman Negara on next Monday... i really want go to this place for long time ady but i cant go. is all because financial problem. i dont hv much money to go because i really almost brankrupt jor.. even i got money, i also wont go 1 because i dont want go with them. i think you know why is it?? nevermind.. let me repeat again. it's because i dont like them so i dont want go with them. everytime is say that i dont hv money, why they are not believe me?? i dont know why la.. is my look seem like a have a lot money? i dont think so. so weird la.. haha.. XD actually these trip i still can go after my exam. so why i want so hurry want go. i'm not so stupid... is not worth if go now. maybe some say is worthy because got a lot friend accompany us and can play together. ya. i agree with that but hold on... if i wanna have fun in one trip, i would see i will go with who!! if them, definitely i will not comfortable because even i look at them one minutes, i will feel wanna vomit ady.. i really honest tell you that i really damn hate them a lot... i dont like see them even few second.. just left 5 months more then i can leave my stupid school and classmates... because of them, i cant enjoy my school life and i ady waste my 19 years old life.. i really so sad with that. from now on, i wont bother anything even they say i cruel or mean because i decide i dont want too close with them ady even my friend. they really influence a lot in my life and i feel regret because i knew them and treat as my friends once upon a time. i was so regret..... i tell to myself that i wont repeat my mistake anymore... i decide i want leave them. in my life, they already be deleted in my friends list... they are no more my friends.. for me, they just my passer by only. nothing relationship at all...
one of my friend ask me. "you already long time didnt go dating is it?". actually i took long time to reply him because i dont know how to answer. then i say "yala. where got guys want chase me." then he reply me back " how i know wor. maybe you got le and dont want tell us only. you want make it secret." let me tell you.. ya. i will make it secret because what for i tell everyone. but now i really dont have boyfriend and i also want meet a guy that can be my boyfriend. haha... but i know that's impossible la. why??
to be continued......
xoxo.. :-)

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2009-06-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

hello everyone... i'm back blogging again. now i'm on holiday but i didnt feel any holiday feeling at all. i feel so bored, tired, anxious and sometimes i will feel so mad to everything surrounding me. i dont know why i will feel like that. i felt that recently i really less talking with my friends. is really seem not like me at all. if compare than before me, i like talking with my friends and always hang out with them but now no more ady. now i dont like going out with them and even talking. i dont want talking with them... i dont want. i dont know why i can change until like this. maybe now i ady grow up and know how to think what is bad and good till become me too choosy ady. why i say like that?? it's because now i too choose friends... i like choose whose will qualify become my friends... that's me now... maybe you all will think me too mean or bad but that is the truth. i cant change myself because of somebody. that's not me at all. i like being myself.. i dont like pretend but sometimes i have to.. why i need to be pretend? because i dont want my friends leave me because they dont like me... but sometimes some of my friends is really annoyed me.. i dont want mention who is he or she.. maybe now he or she is reading my blog. who knows... do you think now i'm talking crap at here?? maybe..
last week i just got my economic exam marks.. i really so dissapointed with my marks. but i can blame who?? me, teacher or else? can anyone tell me??? i really feel wanna cry.. sometimes i think i really failed in my life.. i mean i failed everything..
haizz... now i lazy to write ady... whatever... tata.. T.T

exam

2009-05-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

hihi... recently i really busy with my exam.. really so hard and suffer.. so i wont blogging this few day coz i want doing my revision... so, take care...
bye... :-)

my happiest day

2009-05-11T16:25:00.000+08:00

FU-YOH..
finally MUET is over...
this few days really damn scared because of this exam

hey guys, let me tell u something. finally i can fool them cukup-cukup ady. haha...
this incident was happened on last Friday. i and with my others friend was celebrated my lovely friend, Ling Kenn birthday. so of course we will sharing the cake. but we didnt asked them to share together because we HATE them a lot. so we decided did not joined them. then when we celebrated it, they looked so angry because they did not knew about it at all... haha... i think they was really angry.. but i dont care about their feeling because i think they are not important for me at all... who are they for me?? hmm... let me think... i think they just is my enemy?? no..not so serious. i guess they just is my goofy friends... hahaha...
i'm really so mean... tomorrow i need facing them AGAIN... when i can finish my studies so i no need see them anymore.. haizz... i'm really boring when always see them. they are not fun at all... they just like a KAMPUNG GIRL!!!! they always act like stubborn... i mean everything they just act like just out from kampung. really feel shameful for them.... i dont know what filled inside their brain. one of them always like act silly in front of people. she think is very cute but for me is really ugly and stupid. whose girl like act silly like her?? maybe a lot... but definitely she is the most teruk 1... haha...
i dont know they or others can find my blog. maybe they does... if u're read it, pls keep your mouth shut... :-X

accept it.. T.T

2009-05-03T14:22:00.000+08:00

today is already 3rd may 2009
time really passing so fast than i thought
i still got 5 months before my STPM exam
i'm really so scared...
i scared that i will fail in my exam.
please GOD bless me
that i can pass my exam well...
that's only my hope from YOU in my life.
from now on, i need study hard to achieve my target in exam
i wont let them look down on me..

LOVE??
WHAT IS LOVE?
can anyone answer me what is that?
i'm 19 and i still blurring about love.
is I still too young to understand yet?
or is myself problem?
actually, i really want experience in love but i always dont get the chances
i like to be loved
i like to hug
i like to be holding hand by someone that i love to
but.. but...
i just in dreaming only
i thought last time i will be changes and accept everything that i scared for..
but i still cant make it
day by day, i more depressed about this
sometimes i will feel moody and sad
no one can understand me and try console me
but..
now i just accept my current life...
i just obey it
T.T

my true feeling...

2009-05-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

hihi... it's been quite long time i didnt blogging. actually i got many things wanna say to u all but i dont know where i should start. i want share my feeling with my friends but no one that i can trust. they just can be my ordinary friends but not best friends.. because they too fake.. i think... i really need a true friend that he or she will not pretend in front of me. maybe i too choosy but i wont change my mind. i will stand on my mind that i'm sure i will find my true friend..
by the way, just now i read his blog. i'm quite happy because he start blogging back. but i just know something that i dont know how i want convert the feeling. sad or happy or disappointed?? he say that he got new gf. actually i think we can start over but now i know i wont get the chance anymore. maybe we really dont have destiny. i think what happened at camp just a dream only. is already past... cant turn back. actually, i really want to dating but with my qualification, definitely really hard for me. i ady try my best to change myself but it's seem doesnt work at all. what's wrong with me?? i really dont know...
actually everytime i dating, i really scared especially when we have a date. i really dont have any confident because of my appearance. i feel shame ... shame at all. even i going out with my friends, i also felt like that... when i walking, i'm not dare to look other ppls coz i felt that they will laugh on me. i dont like that feeling.. but what i can do??? i hate myself... hate myself so much... but no one will understand me. no one!!!
today i really write too much ady.......................:-(

btw, today lee hom will be perform at bukit jalil. i really wanna go to his concert but i cant make it. maybe next time... next time sure i will go his concert.
wait me ya....

mad to myself

2009-04-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

today i really so sad. i just having my MUET exam and i didn't do well in my exam. i was so disappointed with myself. how come i will so bad?? i really so angry to myself. actually i can do it more better but i didn't appreciate the chances. i felt wanna cry now.....
i so mad to myself now. for all exam that i had been taken, this exam is i most failure exam that i had. if i got a another chances, sure i will do it more better. but i know that is impossible. if this time exam i ady failed, i will reseat back the eaxm on end of year but i dont want reseat back coz it's really waste money. and also i dont want let others look down on me. i will felt so shame 1. now i just can do my very best in my speaking test on 11th may. let's dont say about my exam ady.
now i want talk about them jor. they really so stupid.. i never seen people so stupid and useless. how come this world will such these people?? i dont know why la.....
they really annoying me and when they make noise at class, it's really irritated me. iwant shout shut up for them... i cant stand on them la... i want become crazy jor... argghhhhh....
idiot people... even one of them is my frenz but i also have little bit nad on her. how come she can knew this such people... i really felt sympathy on her... but what can do.. she like join them. i also cant stop her to join them. she like la whatever she want to do. now i ady less talking with her bcoz if talk with more than 1 minute, i will become idiot... damn..
anyway, now i just want concentrate on my studies jor. the time are not left much ady. must appreciate the chances that i got now. i wont let myself feel sad and disappointed again and again. hope God bless me.........
STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM....... UNIVERSITY UNIVERSITY UNIVERSITY!!!

lee hom "music man " autograph session

2009-04-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

hey... today i was attend the lee hom autograph event at Solaris Mont Kiara. wow... finally i can see him closely. even i cant go to his concert on 2nd May but i will support him. really so many people at there. but luckily i n my friend got a nice place. the place was so near to the stage. i hv capture so many picture of him but i just post the best photo that i had taken... enjoy..

this is his concert poster... 'music man'
nice huh...

this is the stage....

look.... so crowded... a lot of fans..

the MC..

wow.... lee hom...so gorgeous..
love u so much....
LEE HOM! LEE HOM! LEE HOM!

start singing.... 心跳

this is me curi curi snap 1 from backstage when he was given his autograph

posing to let press capture his photo with fans..

cool huh... xD

support 王力宏 forever....

xoxo

crap....

2009-04-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

it's been long time i didnt blogging.. because i dont want write so much at here. i have so much thing wanna to say but who i can be trust?? till now i still havent find the person that i meant. now i feel that my class have a lot of gossip or can be say as trouble la. everyone has own secret but still have few people still blurring on what they doing. i dont wan meant who is them. bcoz my blog still hv my frenz read... i know in my classmates got talk about me or gossip about me la.. i know is who. but of course i also got gossip about them la. actually i dont mind they talk about me. as u know, want be a good person with great attitude, it's really hard to be. but on other hand, be a bad person really easy to be. haha.... actually i really like to be bad people coz being a bad is really nothing to worry.
if we be a good people, sure hv some people will jealous to them. hehe.... did i talking about crap at here??? haha... my style...
haizz.... shortly say, be a bad easy than be a good.
now i just want concentrate on my studies. i wanna show to them that not only they can do it but i also can do a best. maybe some know who i meant. haha..
shhh...... dont tell anyone. blek.... :-p

gathering

2009-03-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

today we go to cafe ' chui chui sui' here r photo that we had taken from there..

waiting for u

2009-03-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

he ady few days didn't reply me... what he doing now? what happening?? really so frustrated...
i dont know what i suppose to do......

fate

2009-03-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!
today i got my economic test result... wow.... what i expect it... is failed my test..
haha..... quite sad but not very sad....
dont know what can say anymore. just treat all of this is fate.
whatever.... :-p

my personality test. n result. . . .??

2009-03-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

this is my result of my personality test..
even some of them is wrong but some are really true about me....
try it : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

:-)

2009-03-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

ady long time didnt blogging...
I'm goNna wiLL busY wiTh eXam
so woN't bloGGing foR a MomenT...
wAit me BacK!!!!
tata..:-)

good experience???

2009-02-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to 1U with my 3 close friend. we really have fun at there. we just watch movie think the movie too menjijikkan only... if u watch the movie, i'm sure u know what i mentioned about.. haha...
after watch the movie, we went back to home coz i really was very tired. from morning until that time, i never sleep.. i ask my friend whether i can drove his car or not. then he say sure.. i'm quite scared... hmm... not quite la but is very very scared. bcoz this is my 1st time drove back from 1U. if my mum know it, sure mati 1 i.... but i think my skill. not bad la. i gave myself 70%.... why i will give myself this marks? bcoz... bcoz.... i just think this marks can only be given. i not expert yet in driving. i need more practicising on it especially when turning and naik bukit... i'm very teruk on this. haizz... what can do??? just drive lolx... haha....
ok la. that's only i wanna write for today...
tata..... xD

valentine day??

2009-02-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

this year i'm still being alone celebrate it.. i thought i n him can celebrate together but we also cant make it. today my classmates was so sweet coz them give every girls classmate a 'LOVE TEDDY BEAR'. it's really unexcepted...... even they pretend mystery but we know is them la... haha.. then, the most unexcepted was the most annoying student also suddenly give a gift for every girl students too. the gift was a 'fake flower' la..haha.. but anyway, i still will appereciate it.. thanks to them la.
tonight i just being alone at home while others was dating or celebrate it with their loved one. whatever....

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY FRIEND.....

problem??

2009-02-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

just now i was chatting with my 'adik angkat'. she told me that she was very confused. then, i asking her why she will so confused?
she told me that she was crushed on her cousin. she met her cousin when she n family attend her relatives wedding. they both was exchange their phone no. from that day, her cousin everyday calling or even message her. so her cousin requested her whether he can be her friend?
so she didnt think so much, so she say ok. everyday they chit chat via phone. on 1 day, her cousin asking her to hang out with him. but for 1st time, she rejected it coz she dont want made any misunderstanding.
but for 2nd time, she say yes bcoz that time she was very boring at home. so she want going out to have some walk. bcoz she say yes, she started had some feeling on her cousin. she say she so scared coz she really worry that the feeling is true.
the problem is she had a boyfriend!!! now her boyfriend was at national service. she dont want let him go coz she still love him but at the same time, she also had a feeling on her cousin. so what suppose i say to her??
i also dont know how to solve her problem.
bcoz for me, love relationship really troublesome... so if can avoid it, i will.
i really cant help her...
i'm so sorryyyyy.......:-(

back to school again

2009-02-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

today is my last holiday jor.. so fast. i really dont want back to school coz when i back to school, i will feel a lot stress in my body. study stress, friends stress n even more...... haizz.. i also dont want say too much coz everytime i say about it, my head will very pain 1. swt****

happy cny....

2009-01-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

yo.... to all my lovely friends

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2009!!!!!

i hope this Fortune God can give some 'choi' to u all.....
good luck to u all..... :-)

GONG XI GONG XI!!!!

big responsible for me

2009-01-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh..... i be chosen by teacher 2 be captain of my sport house...

i really didnt expected it... i thought i just be a ahli biasa ady enough lolx...

really a big responsible 4 me... i dont think i can handle it..

form 6 life really hard... really cant look down on it.. haha.............xD

now i really pening lolx.... what i suppose 2 do?

try my best 2 do my work as captain?? or else??

i dont know....

now i really find a ropes 2 hang myself liao... haizzzzzz

oh my god.... bless me!!!!!!

i hope i wont be chosen 2 play sports lolx coz ady long time din play sports..

now all my muscle n stamina become lembik jor... haha.. :-P

****sigh***** >.<

王力宏- 心跳 MV

2009-01-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

yeah... lee hom is out new album again. this is 1 of the song in his album and i very like this song.. try 2 listen it n give some comment ya.... support lee hom!!! xD

christmas, christmas, christmas..............

2008-12-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

today is a christmas eve....

all my frenz are going countdown but just left me at home... countdown byself..

haha.... is really so funny....

tomorrow i will be going to penang n have my nice holiday at there....

i hope i can enjoy my trip...

hahahahahahaha....................................................................................

anyway, merry christmas to all my friends wherever they are now......

best friend.....

2008-12-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

today i'm so happy coz i was hanging out with my 3 best frenz. today we was going to watch movie named 'Twilight'. from beginning, i thought the movie was a story about vampires. i heard from my frenz. then when i was in hall and the movie was started showed and i watched watched watched then i realised that the movie was a love story movie.. damn it. i most hated watched love movie..... but from the movie, what i can said is the main male character was so handsome n gorgeus... he really is a perfect man for every girls.. haha... after that, we was having our dinner n we really have fun on this night. we chit chat..... talk gossip.. haha.. is really fun.... :-P

siumei
21 December 2008, 12.15am

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

2008-12-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

i ady long time din see him jor. i dont know i still miss him or not. but i think i ady forget about him lolx.. haha.. maybe i dont have any feeling on him anymore. i better dont want talk about him la. christmas is near and i think this i wont go countdown coz...... just bcoz something la. time really passing so fast. more few weeks, 2008 year was end and i need start a new year 2009. next year i will have my stpm exam. everytime i think about it, i really very scared. u know.. stpm is more important than spm. so i cant failed this exam. if i failed, that's mean my whole life n future is vanished. haiz... anyway, just try my best.. God Bless Me______ >.<

2008-12-10T01:02:00.001+08:00

these few days, i really so boring. i dunno what i can do in this holiday. really so boring... >.< now i just always sleep, eat n watch tv only. now i ady became more fat fat fat jor.. haiz.. in these holiday, i just can realise something. i wont say it at here coz this thing only i can know it. other is wont know it. about this thing, i really so sad n disappointed. from now on, i really need rethink that i need 2 be close with them or not. coz i really give up on them at all. when i think back, is really feel so terrible n i cant believe it. i also not dare to think back again. i really hate such these thing. hate a lot.... sometimes i think, i rather got less friends than got more friends. why?? i also dunno why.. i just feel like that only. maybe got more friends are quite troublesome lolx.. or something else?? haha.... so ridiculous la me.. whatever.. hmm.. gonna sleep jor. gud nitez everyone.... xoxo

siumei
10 December 2008, 1.22am

waiting....

2008-12-05T13:08:00.000+08:00

waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting..... just waiting...... >.<""

superstitions*

2008-12-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

here are some list of superstitions that you can to refer it. believe it or not... depends on urself... :-)

Apples

Think of five or six names of boys or girls you might marry, As you twist the stem of an apple, recite the names until the stem comes off. You will marry the person whose name you were saying when the stem fell off.
An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
If you cut an apple in half and count how many seeds are inside, you will also know how many children you will have.

Bad Luck

A bat flying into the house
An owl hooting 3 times
3 butterflies together
Hearing a rooster crow at night
Getting out of bed left foot first
A picture falling

Reverse your luck by turning three times counter clockwise.

Bed

It's bad luck to put a hat on a bed.
If you make a bedspread, or a quilt, be sure to finish it or marriage will never come to you
Placing a bed facing north and south brings misfortune.
You must get out of bed on the same side that you get in or you will have bad luck.
When making the bed, don't interrupt your work, or you will spend a restless night in it.
Never turn your mattress on a Sunday, or change a bed on Friday or you'll have bad dreams.
Make the foot of the bed before the head, or else my dear, you'll never wed!

Bridge

If you say good-bye to a friend on a bridge, you will never see each other again.

Coins

It's bad luck to pick up a coin if it's tails side up. Good luck comes if it's heads up.

Good Luck

Spilling wine while proposing a toast
Looking at the new moon over your right shoulder
Finding 9 peas in a pea pod
Picking up a pencil in the street
Finding a ladybug on you
Carrying an acorn with you will bring good luck
Finding and keeping a four leaf clover will bring you tremendous good luck
Dolphins swimming near a ship
A spider spinning in the morning

Reverse your luck by turning three times counter clockwise.

Hand

If the palm of your right hand itches it means you will soon be getting money.
If the palm of your left hand itches it means you will soon be paying out money

Money

Greeks believe that Money attracts money, so never leave your pockets, purses or wallets completely empty and never completely empty your bank account. Always leave at least a coin or two. It was also considered good luck to give a gift of a wallet or a purse with a coin or two in it.

Sneeze

Place a hand in front of your mouth when sneezing. Your soul may escape otherwise.
The devil can enter your body when you sneeze. Having someone say, "God bless you," drives the devil away.

Umbrella

It's bad luck to open an umbrella inside the house, especially if you put it over your head.

bad luck or my mistakes??

2008-12-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

is it 2day i'm on bad luck or what?? i dont know la... i really dont know how i can ??? the test... WTF!!! so angry on myself.... angry! angry! angry! haizz... dont want say anymore la. :-(

siumei
1 December 2008, 10.20pm

bored and nervous....

2008-11-29T22:35:00.001+08:00

i'm so bored bored bored.... i really dont know what i need 2 do... haiz... monday is my important day. why?? bcoz that day, i will having my driving test. OMG!!! quite scared.... scared will to fail my test. haiz... god bless me... >.<

siumei
29 November 2008, 10.48pm

happy day... xD

2008-11-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday i really so happy until i wont forget it. yesterday was my 2nd time gathering with my ns frenz. there was me, dada, elliza, alex, shin, guru and steven was gather again... we met at sunway pyramid. it was quite far place for me but luckily steven said want fetch us go there.. haha.. can save taxi money. but anyways, thx steven that din say anything about us even he was be bully from us.. hehe... but is fun lolx when bully him. but our time gather was so short coz every1 going there ady late but we still having fun at there. we at there really dun hv any idea what 2 do then we decided 2 watching movie lolx. we watching the movie ' Quarantine'.. is was really suck. the movie really make us so confused n is not terrific at all. and the shooting of camera was make us so dizzy n after finish watching, all of us started headache lolx.... haha.... we all looks so.... so... i dunno what word can describe our feeling that time... haha.... really funny when thinking back. then after watching movie, we decided back home lolx coz some of us wanna back early. so on that time we really scruple 2 left but haiz..... then steven fetch me and dada back home... when i reach home, i still felt so happy n fun coz i got such great frenz. they r part my life that can make me fun, happy n wont let me sad... so i will appreciate them with my truly heart...... best friends forever..... xoxo...

siumei
23 November 2008, 11.15pm

林峯 - 愛不疚

2008-11-21T17:02:00.000+08:00

nice song____so meaningful.... ^-^

sau chong joi ngaan mau
收藏在眼眸　
seung pooi wooi joh yau
常徘徊左右　
ngoi chaai do moot yau
愛猜到沒有　
yue faai woon siu hau
愉快玩笑後　
nung chuen yin tui hau
能全然退後　
nei hoi sum jau guw
你開心就夠
je jung gum gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚　
gong yut cheen gooy ya but guw
講一千句也不夠　
ga si gong liu nei ting do hau
假使講了你聽到後　
waat wooi jau
或會走　
je jung loon ngoi taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有　
sing chuen
成全　
chung sum jook fook yin hau
衷心祝福然後　
jau fong sau
就放手

fong sau
放手　
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有　
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由　
fong sau
放手　
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠　
fong sau
放手　
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有　
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友　
yee ging
已經　
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠

yiu yuen si yue jau
遙遠是宇宙　
jing jing joi booi hau
靜靜在背後　
hui hon sau jau gau
去看守就夠　

je jung gam gok taai chan hau
這種感覺太親厚　
gong yat cheen gui ya but gau
講一千句也不夠　
jik si yut saat yau gwoh chung dung
即使一剎有過衝動　
waan nei sau
挽你手　
je jung loon ngio taai hon yau
這種戀愛太罕有　
but sui jan jing yung yau
不須真正擁有　
sing chuen
成全　
doh se but dat ying yeen
多捨不得仍然　
see fong sau
是放手

fong sau
放手　
fong hoi soh yau
放開所有　
bei chi gung ji yau
彼此更自由　
fong sau
放手　
kei sut ngoh juet fei ngoi dut but gau
其實我絕非愛得不夠　
fong sau
放手　
kwoot chut soh yau
豁出所有　
waan yau je goh hho yau
還有這個好友　
yee ging
已經　
yee ging juk gau
已經足夠

fong sau
放手　
ngoh dikhin gwa
我的牽掛　
jaau but do jun tau
找不到盡頭　
fong sau
放手　
kei mong nei hung fook sam moh do yau
期望你幸福甚麼都有
ya hui
也許　
ngoi hun sum hau
愛很深厚　
yin yee ngoh jo hon dut tau
然而我早看得透　
fong sau
放手　
ji hoh yung yau
至可擁有

Bi 비 Rain- Love Story Full MV

2008-11-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

nice song and great MV.... i like it...

2008-11-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

i think this song is nice until i will repeat it many times. even i dunno what he sing about but i sure is about love and meaningful. i will search this lyric and translate it..... nice nice nice..... XD

siumei
20 November 2008, 6.51pm

2008-11-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

now ady holidays... and i still dunno what i suppose 2 do now. feel so blur.... now i just wait my frenz free 1st then we go hang out 2gether.. i mean my ns frenz la not they. i'm not interested on they at all.. and who 'those' are like see my blog pls dont tell them. i know got some ppl like view my blog then.... haizz... so i wont write so much on it coz.... u know la. just let the secret keep in my heart is ady enough. coz no1 was got a key 2 my heart at all. only me are got.... whatever.... dun care anymore... >.<

siumei
17 November 2008, 1.09pm

tired and bored...

2008-11-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

today i feel so tired and quite boring... dont know why. maybe my life really like this.... haizz... really feel boring with my life. now i dont know my life target. really dont know..... sometimes i really felt that i...... i...... haizz... better dont say it la.. tireddddd!!!! >.<

siumei
9 Novenber 2008, 10.09pm

is it difficult??

2008-11-08T17:55:00.000+08:00

now i really so angry.... 2day my whole plan was destroy by them again... actually 2day i and wei pin want go watch movie at 1U. we want watch the movie 'coffin'. we ady planned so long jor that we want go watch this movie but because of them, our whole plan was vanished.... so damn... then we join them 2gether to watch the most stupid movie...... i think is really a suck movie that i had watched before.... i really want say them a jerkkkk.......... they really make me so stupid and like a crazy girl. now i always find a reason 2 avoid them jor. i really cant stand them. haizz..... i dont want talk about them jor... i just wanna stop at here. jerkkkkk.................. $%^^^^#$#@$%$#@$

siumei
8 November 2008, 6.08pm

disappointed!!!!

2008-11-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

now i started realize that i was a failed person. i failed my exam, i failed my life n i failed everything. i really dont know what i supposed 2 do... my final exam result was really damn bad until i cant believe that i can take such the result. so suckkkk...... i'm really so sad. sometimes i was felt regret bcoz din study hard 4 this final exam. but now i regret also not use coz it's was already pass. what i can do is doing my best when i'm on upper 6. but i dont know i can or not. what i can say just try my best...... haizzz.... now i wan looking some job 2 do 4 earned some money this school holidays. now really dont hv any money lolx. everything also need money. cant tahan la....... u know.. now when i back 2 school, enter my class n see these ppl, i really hate it. i dont like 2 see them in my class. maybe u can say me jealous or what but i just dont like see them only. when i hear they voice, my head will suddenly pain 1.sometimes i really want shouted 2 them SHUT UP... it's really annoying me. what the fuckkkk..... damn... hate.. hate... hate..... >.<

siumei
6 November 2008, 10.20pm

the day that most tired 1... :-(

2008-11-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

2day i going out with them again. we went 2 jusco for watch movie 'high school musical 3'. we go bought ticket 1st coz scared the ticket will sold out. after that, we went 2 muitara complex bcoz koo wanna buy a bag. we go 2 the bag shop n i found that the shop was not got a lot bag 2 let we choose. there just got a limited selection only. actually i also wanna buy a bag but what the bag that offer from the shop was not my choice. very disappointed..... but nvm la. next saturday i will or maybe la going out with dada 2 sg wang. at that time, i sure will buy a lot of things 1. haha..... so from now must save money jor... haizz... ok.. back 2 topic. after that, sook mun want take photo for her license. so we accompany her 2 photo shop. they ask me 2 take 2gether coz i also need it for my license but i refuse it. i think i wont need it now. we still got a time 2 shopping but nothing was attract me 2 buy it. when we finish shopping, we went back 2 jusco n watch the hsm3 movie. after finish watching, the time already was 9pm jor.. so late le n we haven't had our dinner yet. then, we go 2 find restaurant for having our dinner. we already drive along the diner shop but don't hv 1 of them was suitable for us. then, we decide go 2 kafe SBV( near carrefour) for having our dinner la. i was order 1 plate of barbeque's lamb n a glass of pineapple juice that called ' summer summer'. so weird the name..... haha... it's quite cheap coz everything we order was discount 50%.. really affordable.... n the food also quite nice. next time i sure will back there with my friends. after we finish our dinner, koo was fetching me back home. when i reach home also already 11pm. so tired..... now i really feel very tired n wanna go sleep jor..... hmmm.... i think that's all only that i want to write... if still wanna see more at my blog.. pls wait... i will write it as soon as possible. wan go sleep liao... that's all la that i write it 2day. bye... :-p

siumei
1 November 2008, 12.36am

2008-10-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

this few days i really dont know what i am doing now. stay at home and doing nothing. i felt that my life is quite boring and no meaningful at all. i felt that being a human like this really boring and i think i will crazy someday. since i was broke up, i really give up on dating or love some1. actually when i dating with this guy, i really want with him and i also trying 2 love him but i cant. b4 i agree 2 be his gf, i always asking my friends whether i really need 2 accept him. then my friends say just follow ur heart and if u think u're really like him so just going on. but i struggle with myself. i really so confused at that time.... finally, i try 2 give him a chance and also myself... so i try 2 be with him. i telling myself that i wont repeat my mistakes b4 with my 1st bf. but i do it again... i really cant accept him. so i made a decison that broke up with him coz if i still didnt explain with him, sure we both wont happy. futhermore, he ady know that i really not like him but he din try 2 tell me. so i make my 1st step and tell him.... the most weird is i din upset after told him.haha.... when i think back, it's really quite funny.... whatever... now i just want being myself and enjoy my life.... about love, i just let the GOD decide it..... :-)

siumei
30 October 2008, 12.03am

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2008-10-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday i just went my librarian farewell dinner at Grand Continental hotel. i thought the hotel quite low standard but when i reach there, i found that the environment not bad. it's not bad as i thought. then i and my friends taking lift to go the ball room. when the lift door opened, i saw a group of juniors are wait at the reception table. then they invited us to our table. the design n environment in the ball room also not bad. it's just same as ball room when we going to wedding dinner but the space quite small. then we waited the VIP came. it's quite long time 2 wait they arrived. that time i started boring jor. about 8pm, then party was started. 1st thing we're doing r ready 2 have our meals... haha.. but the food was not my favourite so i just take a little bit only. it's really make me yiekkkk...... then it's was a time 2 watched the show that was planned by juniors. hmmm.... the shows quite nice la. after that, time for lucky draw n i so lucky n got a present. but the present just a CUP only... what the f??k!!!! what i want 2 do with the stupid cup?? haiz.... then got some games 2 played. for me, the games that be planned by juniors was so childish but i also played until so crazy... aiyooo... what i am doing now... when i think back, i felt i so... so... haizz.. the dinner was end on 10.30pm. when i reached home, it's was quite late jor n so tiring... in conclusion, this dinner was the worst dinner that i have b4. suckkkk...... wasted my money.... so 'sam tong' lolx... damn.... >.<
let's talked other topic la. hmm... what topic that i can said le?? ah.. har... i finally got my 'L' license ady even i got failed 1 times my undang test.. haizz... so pai seh la. after got my L license, i will go learn my driving class jor. quite scared la especially when driving test lolx. now when i think it, really so horrible la. aiyoo... god bless me la...
dada birthday almost near jor. dont know what celebrate with her or not le. so troublesome la if want plan it coz need call this friend n that friends... so expensive la my phone money. haizz... later baru think la. so fan..

siumei
26 October 2008, 3.16pm

childish...! >.<

2008-10-22T15:37:00.000+08:00

Today i got my MUET result. Haiz.. i passed my MUET but it still not quite good result for me. I felt little upset. Bcoz my marks same with someone that i felt she is quite ????? lolx. Damn bad la.... but today i also quite happy coz my friends are try to tickle me. So suffering... but i quite embrassed la coz whole my classmates watching at me lolx. Really suckkkk......next time if i got a chance, sure i will revenge on them. hahahahahaha...... wait ya. Hmmm... what else that happening today le?? I think thats all only lolx coz now i less hang out with my friends especially with my ns friends. So miss them especially dada, lulu n zaza. Now we are busy with own stuff such working and college or school. So we are lacking seeing each other jor.. Anyway, i know we will meet and gather again soon coz we are on planning.. hehehe... miss ya...

miss u all so much.... see u all soon!!!! ^-^
like this pic so much....

siumei
22 October 2008, 4.00pm

Disappointed..

2008-10-21T15:16:00.000+08:00

Today i just got my economy result. Damn bad la my result... I never expected this result for me. I thought i can take about 50 something but... haizz.. So bad.... Sometimes i will feel embrassing that i got such of this result. I always felt that i'm so sorry on me. Why i could take these result??? Today i saw some people in class expression when knew they result. Some looks so sad and some are looks 'damn' happy. And also some looks like not satisfied with they result. I felt that this time is my most failure result in my history of economy subject. When i knew this result, then i knew it that maybe i will get low marks in other subject. I knew it... haiz.. Now i really didnt want care about what result more. I just want enjoy my life and my school life without any problem and disturbance. I wont let anything infleunce me... haha.... so old-fashioned and ridiculous what i say about.. really not like me. hehe... just wanna to console myself only... hohohohoho... whatever!!!

siumei
21 October 2008, 4.39pm

Life Is Complicated

home

BITCH

final countdown...

学不会的爱情。。。。

i am so idiot!!!

give up on you...

All I need......

i love you

i need someone.....

heart broken

miserable again

miserable

my 1st blog in 2011

christmas and my birthday

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the friend that i shouldn't appreciate anymore

miss him badly

my true feeling..

i hate you

F**K YOU

my future?

help....

dream spoiled.....

boring day to goes...

hell

guys shouldnt be trust....

i need your care....

sorry

craps~~~

Result, Hate and Love

new hairstyle

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great moment

bad christmas year for me

boring day

my future?

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hanging out with my babes

new hair style

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MV of the week

jokes

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regret

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sixth form council farewell party

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helpless

sad sad sad

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dating??

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exam

my happiest day

accept it.. T.T

my true feeling...

mad to myself

lee hom "music man " autograph session

crap....

gathering

waiting for u

fate

my personality test. n result. . . .??

:-)

good experience???

valentine day??

problem??

back to school again

happy cny....

big responsible for me

王力宏- 心跳 MV

christmas, christmas, christmas..............

best friend.....

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waiting....

superstitions*

Apples

Bad Luck

Bed

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